fight till the sun goes down [hope]

[victoria hope jean]

he was driving her absolutely nuts. he knew every way to get under her skin, and he was taking advantage of that. he knew all the right wrong words to say to get to her. it wasn't all that hard for him to do, he just had to be himself. he was an ass, he didn't have to try to be one. it came naturally. she didn't want him to know that what he said had bothered her, but of course, he knew. she didn't hide it. her eyes automatically shot down to look at the comforter she was sitting on, when he brought that terrible day up. why did he have to do that? that was one thing she just couldn't handle talking about. even when she told her roommates what happened to her, she choked up. as he talked, the memory flashed before her eyes and she shuddered at the memory, "shut up, alex," she said quietly, refusing to look back up at him.

just the thought of that ruined her mood completely, that was for sure. she couldn't even think straight now, because her mind wouldn't stop bringing that up. but she couldn't let that stop her. she wasn't going to let that, or him, ruin her day. she was going to get what she wanted, she was going to show him that she wasn't the same little girl. of course, that was a complete lie that even she, herself, didn't know. on the inside, she was still the same, broken girl back in houston. it was all an act that she didn't think she was putting on. she knew that she wanted to be strong for her friends, but it just wasn't happening, was it? it was pretty much impossible. she wasn't getting the help that she needed to get better, to get stronger.. she would keep doing stupid things without thinking it through, like trusting alex. she knew that he wouldn't keep up with what he said, he was the reason she was here, anyway.. the reason she was the way that she was.

hope didn't really know why she was doing this. at first, she thought it was be alright to lead him on, then turn him down. but she didn't even know how to start with turning him down. now.. it was all a game. what kind of game? who would crack first? they both knew who it would be, it would be herself, of course. alex would kill for this, he was a guy. he would just love to go as far as he can, but she wouldn't allow it. she wouldn't dare let him get too far, they both knew that as well. she wasn't that type of girl... the type of girl that she was playing at this exact moment. she was innocent.. the innocent, fiesty girl that everyone here loved. now.. look at her, playing games with the one that she hated. she hated herself for even starting this. her heart practically stopped when he started backing her down into a lying positon once more. when he asked her that question, she bit down on her bottom lip. she had to think about this.. actually, no she didn't have to think about this. she knew that she didn't want to play this particular game. it wasn't her, and she especially didn't want to with him of all people. he won, it was over. she had cracked and they didn't even get that far. she shook her head and moved her hand to his chest, pushing at his chest to get him to move, "no.. no, you win. i give up," she said quietly, feeling completely disgusted with all of this.

word count: six hundred and fourty nine
tag: alex
notes: solike.. this sucks. sorry.

[alexander james cavalier]

the girl never knew when to really shut up herself it was what drove alexander to keep pushing. the girl would tell him to do something and by now well you would think she would have learned that he did the exact opposite of what he wanted. it was what he wanted that mattered, but then again it was all about him like ninety percent of the time. watch your mouth. he warned her not sure why he was giving hope a warning instead of coming up with something a bit more to piss her off, but maybe her aggravation was enough for him at this moment in time. he wasn't really aware where his mind was with that, but it was whatever. things seemed to be playing out differently for the both of them anyways. hope he had noticed surrounded herself with people that weren’t as innocent as her minus this izzy girl. like that girl summer who was apparently her girlfriend and well that was his conclusion of why she was suddenly acting hasty and kissing him and what not. she wasn’t like this before because well she had always been rather innocent sure she was a tease, but well sometimes she couldn’t help it. that was just her body really that did it for him. it must take a lot for whoever she had been with ever to not one to see that body like alex had. though he made that body of hers not such a pretty thing for her too look in the mirror at. no he didn’t leave marks, cuts, or anything like that and well he had used protection lucky her. he didn’t need a little him running around!

alex would kill for this to have her completely voluntarily and he had already seen all of her, but he doubted she would just give in that easy. he could just pretend for a moment as he enjoyed her kissing and toying with him, but eventually he would take it too far and that was and always had been his problem he couldn’t settle for less he always had to have more. that was what his so called personality disorder was about. was his possession and control he wanted to take over people to make the situation benefit him. this was what was going to be getting him nowhere in life. one day he would wake up and realize that he was going to grow old and gorgeous all alone, but nothing more, because he ruined other peoples worlds for his benefit, but what benefit did he really get out of it? ask him that question he wouldn’t know how to answer it.

he had her bedded down below him and she was saying he won and she wanted him to stop. didn’t he know she was sick and he couldn’t do that? he couldn’t do what she wanted him to do and he thrived on her weakness and anyone’s for that matter. alexander james, smirked down at her and he began to kiss at her neck nipping every once in awhile because he had a biting fetish. he pulled back looking at the girl who was giving up and he let his hands trailed up her sides bringing up her shirt. ”i was just starting to have fun though” he said moving down and kissing on the exposed skin he had recently uncovered. ”you’ll like it i’ll be gentle this time.” he said in a creepy tone just to make her stir. his mouth troubled upwards as did her top. he had no definite plans on what he was going to do to hope yet, but he was amused taunting her for the time being.

wearing - this
tag - hope
words - six twenty two (nothing special i sorry :s)
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0

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[victoria hope jean]

you'd think that hope would learn when to shut up when she is confronted by people that she absolutely despises, that she's scared of. but, of course, she never does. she just has to keep fucking pushing, push them over the edge. there were just things that she needed to drop though, like this, because she didn't want to talk about it. she didn't want to think about it, so she actually shut her mouth, but that hurt her. he knew how she felt that night, how much it bothered her and how it tore her so far down. she really just wished that it all played out differently, that he never found her that night and none of this had to go down. she didn't have to lose him as a friend, or lose her brother and his trust. which was really messed up, by the way. she shouldn't have lost connor's trust, alex should have. but it was too late now, the damage had been done and there was nothing that she could do about it. her mind was past fucked up now, she would do anything in her power to get the deed done. to just off herself, because of the boy in front of her.

she knew that she was slowly killing herself by not eating, but she didn't want a slow acting disease, such as anorexia, to kill her. she wanted some fast, such as those pills and cuts that could have done the deed, if that stupid maid hadn't found her soon after she did it. now, she was self-destructive. pissing the people off that she knew could hurt her, doing things that people would never think of doing, such as leading on the person that raped her. i mean, really? what kind of fucked up person would do that? anyone would know that it would lead down the wrong road, that he wouldn't just quit because she said to. she learned that before, so she should know now.

and, of course, she did learn that. her eyes widened and she shook her head. no, this couldn't happen again. she tried to ignore him as he worked on her neck, though it was hard when he kept nipping at it. her hands desperately pushed at his chest. she bit down on her bottom lip hard, shaking her head again, "alex, please," she begged, wishing she hadn't started this. usually, any girl would love to be under him, feeling his kisses along their body, but not her. she hated it. she felt the tears well up in her eyes at the thought of this happening again, but she held them back. she wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing her cry. she tried to calm her breathing as he spoke again, trying to move her body from under him, "don't do this." she was going into panic mode, she didn't know what else to do. she didn't want her only sexual experiences to be under him, unwillingly. this wasn't part of the deal, he was only supposed to come by and see her, not turn this around into a repeat.

word count: five hundred and thirty! D:
tag: alex
notes: solike.. this sucks.

[alexander james cavalier]

the girl had it twisted obviously, because she seemed to talk back to the people she knew could cause the most damage to her, but maybe that was the point, maybe the she wanted the boy to hurt her, because she was sitting there suffering in her own skin. yeah, that was it! that was what it had to be of course. what girl in their right mind would fight with someone if they didn’t want them to harm them, because they knew eventually it would happen. alex, would eventually get to this girl again...well know he wouldn’t some other people were going to show her kind of just how stupid it was too be talking back to people that were kind of fucked up in the head. the people that liked the bloodshed, yeah those kind of people, but right now alex was not aware of that and well he thought sense she knew what he was capable of she wouldn’t be being a smartass, but she had and suddenly she had shut her mouth because he had filled her head with memories and well, that was enough to make her shut her mouth! she lost her brother, and his friendship and sure it was his fault for being over dominant about the whole i’m a horny teenage boy situation, but now the girl was just pissing him off and she hardly had to say much and she was getting under his skin and well he was under hers, but more than that he was in her head and she was never going to forget that as long as she lived.



the girl had always, been rather skinny, but she was in his opinion a twig now and well, that was kind of strange to him. alex, thought it was kind of amusing she was slowly killing herself and no one could tell from her weight, but when she pissed off others the ambushed her like no other. did people not notice that she was not eating or were they just turning their cheek, because they didn’t want to clean up the mess. they couldn’t handle themselves half the time let alone others problems, but both hope and her friends well they tried to take on others problems as well, and instead of helping themselves they were making it worse for themselves. she had some pretty random friends some little girl from oklahoma, some skinny brunette from california, he could not remember where the little girl with the knife was from, but then again he could care less, some pregnant girl from new york. none of them took hope upon their shoulders, because one she didn’t let them but two they were all so fucked up anyways hope served as someone they went too which only killed her more, because she cared about these people.

suddenly, the girl began to realized just how serious alex, was you did not tease him if he was not going to get what he wanted and well his lips faltered over her neck and he pushed the boy leaned up and pressed her body up and into his having had a hand under her back of course to do so. he pulled her top over her head and he unhooked her bra kind of just letting them drop to the floor and pushed her back down on the bed abruptly. oh have i missed seeing you like this” he said not telling her what he meant by that, but he meant naked he could care less about the emotion. when she said alex please he smirked at her. oh now you’re just begging for it” he said and he kissed her shoulder that was now more exposed then ever and well hope was pry more exposed then she wanted to be. too bad! this girl well if he had not done this once before she probably would have been under him willingly right about now. when she said don’t do this he kissed down her body in between her breasts but not giving them the time of day and down her stomach that had cut marks on them he kissed those, because well he was sick looking up at her and his other hand when to the button on her bottoms. ”you don’t even know what im doing” he said pulling his lips up from her body and unzipping them making eye contact. ”you might like it.” he said licking his lips letting her suffer, just like she was doing in reality anyways, she was suffering.


wearing - this
tag - hope
words - seven sixty-three
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0

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[victoria hope jean]

hope had changed a lot since she had came to hawthorne. she'd been changing so much, it was ridiculous. she wasn't the shy sweetheart from texas that everyone knew and loved. she was the nice bitch from texas with something bad that happened to her. she didn't really like that she had changed so much, but with the people that she hung out with, it was hard not to act like that anymore. really, she was just trying to distract herself of the past, of the questions that popped in her head. she didn't want to keep kidding herself, though, because she didn't like acting like the way that she had been. she was pushing people away. she never did that! she used to be the most open girl about things, but now every little thing.. she kept a secret. she couldn't help it, though.

she couldn't let this happen again, though. she had to do something to get out from under him, she wasn't just going to lay there and cry, even though that's really what she wanted to do. her brown eyes glared up at him, her lips in a thin line. her hands pushed violently at his chest again, she wasn't going to do this. she couldn't, "no, alex!" she yelled, as he was taking off her shirt. how she prayed that amanda or izzy would walk through that door, get him off of her. finally, she let the tears that were gathered behind her eyes fall, shaking her head. she wasn't going to win, she never did, so why was she even trying? she tensed up a great deal after being push back on the bed. why was it she ended up in these situations? she let out a shaky breath she desperately needed to do something about this. she pushed more at his chest, though more desperately now, rather than violently. she was ignoring everything he said, just focusing on getting him off of her. it was all false hope, though. deep down, she knew that she couldn't get him off of her. he would do what he wanted, just like he always did.

her body shivered as he kissed down her body. he kissed her scars, that just made her cry more. she didn't want anyone to see her like this; not only because she wasn't ready for anyone to see her, but because she felt disgusting. with the lack of nutrition in her system, her bones poking out beneath her skin and the scars that she would have to live with forever.. it upset her to know he was seeing her like this, the one person she didn't want to see. she was feeling sorry for herself right now, but she had a right to be. just being in this situation, under alex with him undressing her, it was bringing back memories of the night he raped her. memories she desperately tried to forget, "i have my ideas," she said in a shaky tone. her hands pushed at his when he reached her shorts, "no no no," she kept saying over and over, "i won't like it. please don't do this," she would do anything to get him out of her room, to just not let this happen.
word count: five hundred and fourty five
tag: alex
notes:

[alexander james cavalier]

alexander, really had not talked to hope so much sense they had been in hawthorne and was mostly drunk and lazy. in fact he was just starting to kind of get back into the swing of things drink a little less and play the game a little more. the game? well, that was the beauty...it was unknown and he was always the winner. if anyone wanted honesty they'd never get it off his lips about what he did. he was not okay though he knew that much for sure, but he didn't care. alls he could ever remember was caring about was himself, well and hope. that had scared him and well he ended up taking it too far, but that was a repetitive thought in his head. here he was above her being absolutely disgusting and doing this again. she was going to more than likely shut down...and be useless, but that was what he was aiming for keeping her completely silent, but than she opened her mouth on her own all the time. was this a sick twisted way of protecting her now? no, that couldn't be. maybe, he was doing this cause he cared? that was weird though..

the broken record was playing beneath his body again. it said no alex no when he began to strip her of what very little clothing she had on. there was no stop button though she should know this unless of course he stopped himself. suddenly, the water works started up as well. she was just so fool of negativity tonight. this was his first visit in such a long time. he was just getting acquainted, so to speak and teaching her a lesson that much was always obvious. the girls always learned something well....so he thought or liked to think. she tensed up and then she was desperately breathing. didn't she know he was feeding of such energy? then she pushed at his chest again in a struggle and a smirk was playing on his face. "you're weak." he said letting her try some more not budging a bit. "you'll never when this fight victoria..."

[/i] he said getting bored and looking over her body that he had no exposed her moved his hands over her ribs. "this the new style...wearing skin to dress up your bones?" he commented. he'd have to tell someone about this...when the time was right. like connor he may want to know that his baby sister was letting her body eat her away...

kissing at her scars was actually rather disgusting. he wouldn't admit that to anyone though he was just doing it to be a twisted sicko, but he did that all on his own without her having scars he would have still been gross. when she said she had her ideas the boy kind of just snickered at her and he pressed her body up into his as he slid down her bottoms so her body was almost all the way exposed to him she was just lying there in her underwear. "i really want to take you to new heights again hope.." he said licking his lips and when she said no no no she wouldn't like it he kind of just shook his head. he took out his phone and took a picture of her. "...what do you really think i want to fuck you again?" he asked biting her stomach just a bit moving down between her legs and kissing her over her underwear. i've had this once...i've had this first...but i really just came to get on your nerves." he said and removed her underwear and her took them and put them in her mouth as a gag. then he took took the arms above her head and pulled out some twine..yeah alex had twine just in case he wanted to play rough. he wrapped it around pretty good and tied her hands together. "goodbye hope" he said leaving her like that naked and the door cracked. yeah it was gross, but it'd show her right? right..why was he even trying to show her anything? why did he care enough to just leave her? he wasn't sure.





wearing - this
tag - hope
words - six ninty nine
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0
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