been lookin' [laiso]

[summer rayann lima]

the small dusty path up to the lighthouse was an enjoyable little walk for the girl. she knew she shouldn't be going out alone, because she had a demon here in this town of south haven maine, but the girl just wanted some fresh air and some breathing time and possibly to work out a little bit even if it was just a walk she felt like she needed it. sure she would probably have people worrying about her back at the school, because she made a decent amount of friends more recently that she had considered to be more her family then her original family. they were a nice group of people despite all their troubles. what that heart didn't know she didn't think it could miss, but she did miss out on what it meant to love and it was cute, because now she was head over heels for someone even though she had set her heels aside more recently, because she liked more comfortable shoes like uggs, slippers, sandles, flats..the breeze made her curls blow as she walked to get to her destination. once upon the place she opened the unlocked door to the lighthouse. she had came here a lot when she didn't really know many people and just wanted a place to escape and get high.

today that was not the case though it was just an escape she was 6 weeks sober being that she had found out rather early about her pregnancy kind of through a check up with the school nurse. it was a odd surprise but none the less it had turned into a really good thing. the story unfolded to the boy and well at first he was a bit of a skeptic being that she had kept it from him. over all a lot had happened over the last couple weeks even the girl learning that she was going to be having more than one child. maybe it wasn't likely, but she had gained more weight than normal for a single baby already with in the couple of months that she had been...summer knew it may not be the best idea known to man, but she ended up climbing up the stairs of the lighthouse to get to the top by then she was exhausted. the girl took her water out of her purse as she sat up on the top peering down at the people walking about the place, because it was a popular area to kind of hike about from what she noticed. the seventeen year old didn't look pregnant by any means and probably shouldn't even know she was, but the fact of the matter was that she was glad for early results, because she was scared as hell to be other mother and took a gazzillion tests afterwards to be sure....but knowing now she wouldn't put drugs in her system. she wouldn't hurt her kid..no kids not hers theirs. that would be bad.

more recently she had been in and found out she was having twins and she went in for a physical. nothing too big just yet. though in months to come she would be waddling her way into to see her doctor and get more pictures of what her and clyde were calling the peanut aliens, because well she wasn't sure, but it stuck and was kind of cute and no one had argued it. she hung her feet down over the side looking out into the water and kind of at the surroundings once more recognizing a few people but she wouldn't say a word, because who knew what they were really up to and well she was just at peace. surely someone would see her eventually. legs hanging off the lighthouse wasn't just a normal kind of thing. especially if they were taking a picture of it or something like that. "ill be famous" she joked to herself at her thought of being in someone else's photo. that was always just weird though going to disneyland or whatever and ending up in someone's family photo...then realizing it after you have already crossed. the more creepy detail was they had your photo...it was just a random thought, but oh so true.


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I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MY DEMONS
- - - been lookin' for someone like you

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[laiso jade skelton]

After a day of receiving calls from concerned relatives, telemarketers and rejected work placements Laiso had finally come to the realization that she was completely absent of a social life. Hormonal enough as it is and the size of the whale, she tucked her knees inside herself and sobbed on the floor of her living room. She hated being alone, it was agonizing. Then she thought to herself that she only had herself to blame. She could've explained to the doctor that she and her husband had divorced and therefore fertility treatment wouldn't be best at the time. No, she took the treatment anyway, here was her reward. Three children that made her cry, go to the bathroom and throw up more than any illness she'd ever had. Not to mention the backaches. What kind of potential was that for meeting someone?

When the tears stopped coming, she presumed from her tear ducts going dry, Laiso wondered what she would do today. Nobody was giving her extra shifts at work since she was showing her pregnancy. She supposed sufficient workers didn't come from pregnant people. Though the other nurses secretly loved drama, they must be missing her lots. They were the biggest gossips Laiso had ever come across. And that was how Laiso was spending her Summer - working near constantly so that she had more maternity leave when the baby was born rather than taking it all prenatally. Sometimes she got lonely though, and she'd recently realized she had a tendency toward men that bossed her around. Her bizarre crush on Hunter Jones still left her perplexed. Sure he could be dangerous, but in spite of this she wanted to draw him into her arms and kiss him. It made no sense, unless Laiso had a fascination for things bad for her.

She remembered the first conversation she had with him, outside that cafe. He had thrown so many threats at her, she could see in his eyes that he wanted her gone. Laiso remembered sitting still as a statue. It was a confusing time for her, especially with the revelation afterward that she wanted to see him again. So Laiso couldn't honestly say that things were running smoothly for her. In a bid to improve her mood, Laiso went for a walk. She tried to forget about her feelings, both the emotional types and the physical feeling of a higher than normal body temperature as she walked onto the beach. She hated the fact that no one was there with her, friend or otherwise. She felt like the world had left her on her own to be strong and the plan had backfired.

In time, Laiso found the lighthouse. It was hard to make the decision to walk up all those steps, with a huge pregnant stomach and three babies kicking in protest it seemed unlikely. Besides, she was getting a little hungry and in the mood to go back home and eat (a mood she found herself in about six times a day). Then she saw someone sitting over the side, a young woman. She knew if there was any occasion to forget about the cute guy she learned very little about, it was this occasion to renew acquaintance with someone she'd undoubtedly seen before but hardly engaged with. "Hello up there!" she shouted, it would be the most exhausting feat of her pregnancy to try to climb those stairs.

[summer rayann lima]

pregnancy was supposed to be a beautiful thing, but to be honest summer really never imagined she would be pregnant at seventeen years of age and walking down a lot of roads she had in the last year or so. honestly, the girl had a lot of bumps but bumps like this were life changing and her main concern right now was blowing up. the other part was she wasn't sure if she was ready to be a mother. it scared the living crap out of her, because her real mother had not done wonders for her and she didn't want to fail. at her age though no one could really blame her for being scared. she felt alone kind of but at some points she had never had more people there for her then she did at this exact point in time. maybe it was early emotions of pregnancy and a natural reaction, but she tried to bury her emotions around most. she liked being the happy and crazy summer, because that was who she truly was, but it also kind of gave her a release from reality. the reality that it was all so happening so fast.

up on top of the lighthouse watching people was most soothing to her and she didn't really know why, but it felt like just the right escape from it all. that sounded bad because she didn't know why she needed to escape but they all made her smile. them all carrying out their lives and enjoying the beach in this big uncertain world. she was from a big town where beaches were beyond packed, but maine and the people here they just they were so much more calm to her? then again there was none of the previous pressures she face back in her good ol' hometown of los angeles california. she never wanted to go back, this was home now. maybe she just wanted a new look at the place she was going to be calling home and air and the time alone..the memories...it was all one big mess up in that head of hers, but it was soon distracted by a woman who was obviously pregnant who she had seen before. she couldn't help but smile. "hello down there" she kind of swaying a bit. "you look familiar.." she said kind of stating the obvious.

summer pushed her long brown locks back because she had to to that often and tried to remember. "hmm" was the faint sound of her lips and she took another drink of her water. "yeah no the view just isn't doing it for me not that you don't look amazingly stunning down there, but.." she stopped her random ramble and smirked. "give me a sec.." she said standing up and adjusting her sweatshirt so it was pulled about her hips and picked up her purse slowly making her way down the stairs not wanting to you know trip because that would be such a summer move. "oh i know who you are now you're the pretty nurse" she said once she was down in front of her. she hadn't noted she was pregnant before but it was kind of cute to see. now only if she could come up with her actual name rather then pretty nurse lady, because she couldn't be calling someone by their profession that just wasn't right. "im summer" she said extending her hand for the laiso to shake. "and please forgive me just one more piece of random banter you are really gorgeous even when pregnant just throwing that out their for you and you know people walking around gawking at our beauty..i mean the lighthouse to know" she said with a grin. yeah, totally a mouthful but that was just her persona.


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I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MY DEMONS
- - - been lookin' for someone like you

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[laiso jade skelton]

The thing was, Laiso was twenty three. Nobody expected her to be scared, because there were teenagers in the country getting pregnant. Early twenties was becoming the respectable age to give birth. Laiso felt lost and way out of her depth with one baby. She was having three. Triplets. Her energy was limited so Laiso took a seat on one of the steps, her muscles were already feeling tense with the extra strain. Nobody seemed to understand what it was like in the third trimester until you had experienced it. At which point you wish you hadn't. "Amazingly stunning?" Laiso repeated, wondering because she heard it from someone above her whether she'd misheard. She proceeded repeateding what just happened in her head, Laiso was sure the words 'amazingly stunning' came out but they couldn't possibly apply to her. She was huge!

If the compliments fired at Laiso were from someone of the male gender Laiso would be suspicious and take it as an invitation into their pants. Thankfully the person was a woman, so it wasn't as likely that this was the motivation for her compliments. Though no woman had ever called her 'gorgeous' before. Why was she saying these things? She didn't feel like she was any of them. Maybe it was normal for her, but Laiso wasn't used to receiving such kind words. Then the name connected with the medical record. Substance abuse, so the girl could have injected heroin into her veins before coming to meet her for all Laiso knew. She wondered how the girl had been doing and even more so, if she'd done any better. Though as a nurse she saw plenty of students, some hopeful to stop, very few actually did.

"Laiso" she said, somewhat disconnected. The step she was sitting on felt like her personal holder and if she stood up she was going to fall off. "Really gorgeous..?" she quoted, the words didn't make sense at all. She shrugged a little and decided just to take the words as they came, even if she didn't personally believe them. "What's a nice girl like you doing in a place like this?" Laiso asked, looking around at all the eroded stone, dust and cobwebs that had gathered inside the bottom of the lighthouse. It looked like a cellar, it wasn't somewhere she expected a female teenager to be unless it was for suspicious behaviour. Then, she didn't want to judge this girl before she knew her. Hopefully she was just enjoying the view.

[summer rayann lima]

the above view depicted a woman who was obviously pregnant and well summer indeed think it was stunning. however, she was already weary about being fat. she didn't think about the woman's sensitivity or the young lady which ever was preferred really she wasn't good at determining those kind of things. she watched as she sat down. that drew her lip between her teeth. that was going to be her...now this observing was kind of scaring her, but well she wouldn't let that show, because she wasn't one to be rude. she had self taught manners and respect for people. the walk down the steps she was careful but all's she could ponder on was actually being that far along. that sounded bad, but she had joked about it, but surely that was going to be her. when she got to the bottom of the stairs she paused for a second and shut her eyes. "everything is going to be fine" she mumbled took a deep breathe and that is when she emerged in front of laiso and her little spill kind of got carried away, but she really did look flawless in her opinion. though she wasn't trying to judge a book by its cover.

summer was the kind of girl to give compliments often it was weird. well more often sense she had kind of came off drugs. it was more apparent to her the beauties of the world, but it also scared her more than ever because reality to her was a scary thing and that was just sad. her reality was she was a seventeen year old girl who was addicted to drugs such as mary jane, prescription pills, cocaine, and well extacy was her favorite, but she had to give away all of those feelings...it was for the best right? that she wasn't up here getting high for once someone who knew summer would be proud of her. she wondered a little bit if everyone was watching over her not just to protect her from the bad of the school, but also to protect her of herself and her feeding her addiction. probably and she didn't blame them, but she was doing alright though everyday was a struggle for her. that look well she didn't notice it because she was pondering on her thoughts for a moment, but had she noticed laiso actually recognizing her she might have been slightly uneasy...

the girl's thoughts got distracted by her reply. the woman had a unique name, but the tone was kind of disjointed. she wondered if she was bothering her and then her bad habit came to play again of her chewing on her bottom lip. when she repeated her words summer kind of smiled. "yeah" she said in a softly spoken tone. "sorry, if im weirding you out i tend to have that effect on people often." she said with a shrug. it was a normal thing for summer, because she was slightly crazy, but in an amusing way for most, but she did know that not everyone would be amused. summer kind of glanced about at her question overseeing details she hadn't before and then looked back at her. honesty was always a good thing..she licked her lips now before she replied. "well, i use to kind of come here to lose myself ..." she said trailing off and bringing her fingers to her lips to show what she meant as she looked to the dirt but then looked back up at her. "but i just came her to think today...haven't had a lot of just me time lately and i needed to.." then she kind of grinned. "don't take this the wrong way, but its kind of like a calling a suppose...i came here to think about well..." she sighed. "i'm pregnant and well then you show up and..i don't know am i talking too much i do that when i get nervous sometimes..." she said to be honest, but then she did it when she got high to...one or the two could get easily confused, but she hadn't touched any drugs in sometime now.


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I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MY DEMONS
- - - been lookin' for someone like you

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[laiso jade skelton]

"Oh thank god, I was worried you were part of some cult that for some reason gathered at the lighthouse." her voice strained as she tried to stand up from the step to shake the girl's hand. It seemed an impossible task. Carrying a pregnant stomach was a lot like carrying weights that you couldn't put down. Grunts filled the room like a chorus of angels as she continually tried to rise to her feet. "Umm could you help me up?" her tanned face blushed a little. She hated people needing to help her, she liked to help herself. She could only suppose that she got that attitude from the divorce. Every single possibility in her head turned out the way she worked solo, she wasn't making the mistake of letting people in.

"As you can probably see, pregnancy isn't all fun. Actually, it's no fun at all. The only thing that helps you get through it is knowing you'll meet your babies-- i mean baby soon." she confided, though unsure why she had to say anything at all about pregnancy. She was technically just as clueless as this girl, it was her first pregnancy too, only Laiso was further ahead and expecting triplets. Which if nothing else killed dating prospects. Laiso absolutely loved kids and even after her triplets were born she'd want more (eventually!) but the pregnancy was making her more pessimistic than she'd ever been before. It made her sad, angry, disappointed, violent and horny all at the same time sometimes. It gave her headaches to think of it. Pregnancy didn't suit her at all, which was why the compliments caught her off guard.

"If you don't mind though, I mean. I'm not coping with being a single soon-to-be-mom very well right now. I'm not sure pregnancy is the best choice of discussion for me." she regretfully told the girl, apologetically realizing that the girl probably needed some advice. It had been crazy for Laiso who was twenty three, this girl looked no older than seventeen. "I mean.. unless there's something bothering you?" she hastened to add.

[summer rayann lima]

Summer noticed her tone was kind of strained but she just laughed a little at the comment thinking of one she could come back with. She nodded when the girl asked for help up and held out both of her hands to her. "One two three and upsidaisy" she said not being the strongest person but both of them together they could manage. You know...my cult only meets here once a month it was last weekend" she joked with a wink smiling at her, because she wasn't really in a cult or anything like that and that much was obvious, but she had a good sense of humor about things and she didn't take her comment at all personal and well once she was on her feet she wanted her to know that kind of. She noted a bit of an attitude, but figured it was just pregnancy because she was moody a bit, so she wasn't going to take anything too serious.

The next thing that escaped her lips made Summer kind of look to the ground and pout. She wanted to say gee thanks, because well she kind of wished she had a different answer about it? That it wasn't that bad...though a lot of odd ends were kind of thrown into it...It just made Summer feel even worse kind of about being pregnant. "Oh" was her simple reply to it not being fun at all. "Babies" she said putting it back out their for her because she was having two and she knew about it though it was barely even notable right now Summer felt fat already because she had never weighed more than one hundred and five pounds and she was up to one seventeen the last she had been on a scale. "Well, I mean I guess...it doesn't sound fun, but the babies part is factual and you'd know your stuff you um how far along are you?" she asked tucking some hair behind her ear. She wasn't implying anything at all trying to keep it sweet and simple as not to piss her off, because she didn't want that. She well even though it made her sad kind of enjoyed the ladies honesty and it was helpful.

"Oh right I'm sorry." she said shaking her head some and looked back to her biting her lip. A smirk played on her lips Summer's mind at work thinking about the single part she liked playing match maker. Though she wasn't sure she'd want to talk about guys either, because there was a reason she may be single and well it may be just bitter? She was unsure. Though she was enjoying her mind thinking of older guys she knew of here in South Haven, Maine. She was lucky she wasn't a single mother. She didn't know what she would do without Clyde. Though her thoughts were interrupted unless something was bothering her and she noted the apologetic look. "Oh don't worry about it..." she said with a shrug. "...I don't want to bother you about anything if you don't feel like talking about it." she said with a smile being nice. "thanks though" she replied looking to the water then back at her. "...so uh what brings you out here?" she asked in her attempts to change the subject, but keep up convo and it was only a fair question sense Laiso asked her.


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I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MY DEMONS
- - - been lookin' for someone like you

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