Post by natie on Jul 9, 2011 18:41:48 GMT -5
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natie-----lesley----ellie----tasha
N A T A L I A ● SALONE ● B R E W E R
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EIGHTEEN ● SENIOR ● DISSOCIATIVE DISORDERS
MIRANDA KERR
the conversation that ended it all:
natie: hey hallie! ready for the big dance on friday
hallie: you mean you aren’t going to ditch me and bryan for the freaks
natie: what? you guys are my besties. and you know me. can’t say no to a dance
hallie: yeah i don’t know you anymore. you’ve been acting strange for the last couple years and i’m finally sick of being ditched.
natie: what…hallie i havn’t ditched you!! what are you talking about
hallie: bryan please tell her!
bryan: natie doll! can’t say that you havn’t ditched us. but i mean if you are having some mental issues, i’m not going to blame you
natie: what?? I don’t remember doing this to you. please tell me you are lieing.
hallie: hummff!
bryan: babe I can’t tell you we are. cause we aren’t
natie: oh…i don’t remember…i’m so sorry…but but the dance? are we on?
bryan: of course love!
diary entries!
dear diary,
i don’t know what is going on anymore, everything around me is just so confusing. hallie just told me that i’ve been hanging with the freaks behind the school smoking. why don’t i remember this? why am I forgetting everything all the time. oh god, please tell me i’m not going insane. oh! i told the school counselor and well he recommended a therapist. mom and dad weren’t home, so that left me to do it myself. so i have an appointment tomorrow. so i guess i will tell you about it later
love,
natie!
dear diary
the therapist says all the things I’ve explained, explain dissociative disorder or shall i say. I’m fucking insane. how can I be insane? my life was normal..i thought. how do I have multiple personalities disorder???i don’t want this, I can’t stand this. they are gonna send me to this school. hawthorne. I’m allowed to bring you. my tiny bit of sanity in a world full of things i don’t want. oh god. what if that place is full of insane people? oh i can’t deal with this….please don’t make me deal with this…god..oh…damn
love,
natie…maybe.
natie was born to an abusive family where she was locked up for multiple days. she was abused physically and sexually as well by her parents and other people they had in there house. she was left constantly with strangers while her parents were off doing drugs and what not, which then later resulted in her first multiple personality to appear. ellie. she was all quiet, and was a way for natie to never remember what happened to her, which is great on natie's part. though as natie grew older, ellie stayed the young four she was when she was first created. always silent, happy, overemotional, the normal child things.
as natialia grew older she had been subject to ridicule thanks to her horrible parents. everyone knew they were druggies, and natie needed someone other then herself to protect her. so next thing you knew, tasha was created. she was the girl who practically told you what was what, and if you didn't like it, well you'd have to be prepared for an attitude adjustment. she had always had it in mind to protect natalia, it was her one goal and the thing she always set out to do. mostly save natie from herself.
further down the growing up road, natalia had a crush on the most popular boy. she blabbed about it to her one good friend, and she could never figure out how to ask him. she was too shy, too scared and way too down on herself. finally came lesley, who was the slutty one. she went up to the boy, licked her lips, and next thing you knew, natalia wasn't a virgin anymore. though well she had no recollection of it, and when the boy came up to her she looked utterly confused out of her mind.
her best friend finally put two and two together, and told natie, who just was stunned out of disbelieve. knowing what was going on she could practically feel the fightening in her head, the constant need of the other personalities to come out. sometimes she wasn't sure if she was really natie or someone else[though usually when she's thinking this she's usually naite]. she's constantly living in fear that her personalities will take over. so she told the school counselor about it, to try and see if she could get some help. and they sent her here.
personalities:
natie: natalia is sweet, caring and makes friends easily. she's usually always chipper and constantly in a good mood. many people could find it annoying, though she'd blow it off and be like who cares. she loves reading, and is super smart. she studies like crazy, and loves to find out new things by experimenting with things. [she's the one you'll see studying and reading]
ellie[created when she was 4//remained 4]: she's practically a little girl, acutally she is a little girl. created when natie was only four, she remained that age. usually used when something so horrible is about to happen as natie's escape route. to drown out her memories of horrible things. this girl can cry, laugh, and be angry in all of a minute. she usually is easily forgiving and just like any overly sweet [she's the one you'll see out playing with dolls]
tasha:[created when she was 9//is 18]ah the bad girl. she's cold, heartless and usually only cares about one thing. keeping natie safe. she's constantly in the gym, trying to be as intimidating as she can. which is hard in natalia's little body. she usually befriends most of the guys, and usually frowns upon the helpless. [she's the one you'll see playing sports]
lesley[created at 14//is 18]: this girl is usually sultry, dressing up in almost nothing just to try and see how many guys will look at her. she's not a hoe[only actually having sex twice], but she sure acts like it. she loves to be a tease, she'll probably dump you right when you think your about to get her in bed. she's usually hated by most girls, and by some guys. she really could care less about what people think, and will either give them the finger or let someone else take over. [she's the one you'll see smoking pot, patying, ect]
natalia is usually in control, tasha is pretty good at taking over as she pleases, lesley will fight for control when she wants, and ellie is usually the quietest, and takes control only when needed.
tasha and lesley know everything that happens no matter the personality in control at the time. ellie remembers very little, but that's more cause she's only four and can't really remember things in general. natalia remembers nothing, and that usually causes problems, and is the reason she's so miserable lately.
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