Post by juliet sarah callaghan on Sept 20, 2011 0:56:45 GMT -5
juliet hated being alone in here. it was too quiet, the silence was too loud. she was so afraid that at any moment jared might show up in her room despite the fact that there was school. but she would rather have him visit her than see alice again. she hated her cousin. she scared her more than anything in the world. she didn't want to be alone in here. she just didn't want to be alone in general. she wanted someone she knew and liked in here. but she barely knew anyone here. and the people she knew were in school or in the hospital with her. she wanted to see abi so badly but she didn't.... she didn't even want to see her. despite the fact that she could barely walk, she would have crawled to abi if only the girl would see her. like her, abi wasn't the same. neither of them were happy any more ans she hated it. she hated being afraid to be happy. she hated this place. the only positive thing she could think about from this place was meeting abi and jimmy.
she wished damien was here. instead, he was all the way at ucla, probably having the time of his life. she didn't blame him though. she knew he deserved it after having to put up with her for so many years. still, she knew her brother loved her and cared about her more than any girl in the entire world. she missed him so much that her heart hurt. she wished he was here to wrap his big arms around her, stroke her blonde hair like he always did, and rock her to bed in his arms until the nightmares stopped. she wanted to be wrapped in the fairytale world that her brother built around her. damien always treated her like she was a small child that needed to be taken care of twenty four hours a day, seven days a week she used to hate it when he did that, always treating her like she was going to snap in half if he didn't protect her. little did they both know, it was true. that without him in her wold, all she did was fall apart. before she realized, a tear rolled down her face.
with a shaky bandaged hand, she wiped the tears away, shaking her head. she was safe. jimmy kept her safe. he was just away at the wrong place at the wrong time. and she..... she was just unlucky. it was her own fault, really. she was the one who didn't know how to keep herself safe. she was sure she had "hurt me, hurt me, i'm innocent and forgiving" plastered on her forehead. she shook her head a little, her blonde curls whipping against her cheeks, trying to rid the thoughts. why was she so unhappy and depressing these days? she stared up at the ceiling blankly, tears trailing down the side of her face as it pooled against her locks. 'smile, jules, just smile.' she thought to herself, her voice pleading, but.... she couldn't. after all that's happened, she couldn't bring herself to smile. it hurt. it made her heart race in fear and it made her stick to her stomach.
she forced herself up until she was semi-sitting, her weight depending on her arm as she reached over the bedside table for her phone, dialing her brother. A groggy voice came on followed by a yawn "jules, is that you?" damien asked in his sleepy tone. oh how she missed his voice. she hadn't realized how much she missed her brother until she hears his voice. she swallowed hard, the tears streaming down her face. she forced a smile on her face no matter how painful it was, "oh dami! i'm so sorry! i forgot the time difference..." she trailed off, looking up at the ceiling, holding down the tears, hoping that she wouldn't start stuttering and saying umms and uhhhs any time soon. she bit down hard on her lower lip as damien spoke up again, "no no baby girl. stop... it's okay. what's wrong?"
"i'm sorry dami.... i guess i'll just... i can... i'm sorry dami.... i didn't mean to wake you. i'm sorry. you should just... just go back to bed." she mentally cursed herself for sounding like this. she didn't sound like happy juliet whatsoever, and she didn't like it. "not until you tell me what's wrong." he said stubbornly. she shook her head as if to say nevermind. she couldn't tell him what happened here. "i just want to go home dami... i want to live with you...." she started, glancing down at her lap. from the other end of the phone, a girl's voice could be heard. "go back to bed, dami" juliet froze for a second at the sound of another girl, the thoughts of her brother doing it with a girl going through her mind. and then thoughts of guys raping her started to play. not long after, the things jared did to her ran through her mind as well. the phone dropped from her grasp as she panicked, heart racing, hard to breathe. "jules? baby girl? juliet, you there?"[/color] she glanced down at the voice coming from the phone, blinking out of her trance, blinking back the tears, nodding. "i'm here, damien." she whispered through her tears.
"jules... are you crying? you never cry...... what's wrong? did something happen?" she shook her head again blinking away the tears, staying silent for a couple of minutes before opening her mouth again, "i want to come home, damien.... please." her brother sighed in frustration, "not this again, juliet. we've been through this. you can't come home until you're better.we don't want you home until you're better. and don't say you don't have a problem because everybody knows you do." her brother ranted angrily. juliet just continued to cry, shaking her head with disagreement. she didn't have a problem. people needed to stop saying that she did. it wasn't fair. she didn't see a problem. "you don't get it dami.... there's so many bad people here... i want to come home. please.... just come get me... i just..." but her brother interrupted her before she could continue, not bothering to hide the tears anymore, letting them flow freely down her bruised cheeks. "i love you and i miss you baby girl, but no is no."
he didn't believe her. they never believed her. it wasn't fair! juliet cried harder, "please dami.... i can't.... i really can't stay here.... it hurts.. it hurts so much...... why can't.... i just want to come home.... i promise i'll eat..... i'll eat whatever you want me to eat... just... please." she begged through her tears, pleading her brother, but he just sighed and told her no. "no jules. this is for your own good. now good night." and with that, the call ended. juliet chucked the phone at the wall across the room angrily, burying her face in her hands. she hated this place. she wanted to go home. she couldn't take it anymore. everyone was too mean. they cussed and they fought and they do mean things to people.... she didn't enjoy it. she didn't like feeling like this. [/justify][/blockquote]
tag: open
words: one two eight six
outfit: a hospital gown?
notes: no one really has to take it.
i just had a lot of jules muse =P[/blockquote][/size][/center]
