why do i love you[alliya]

[blake caden laurence]

only when i stop to think about it,

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blake had been angry at alliya, and slowly the anger turned to just disappointment. he was disappointed in what she dd, but he was gone. then again, why would she do something like that to him. it all just circled in his head over and over again. he still loved her, nothing had changed that at all. he was still madly in love with her, almost as if nothing had happened. but it did happen, and he still couldn't come to grips with forgiving her. not that she seemed to want it, he had gone to try and help her. but it seemed she didn't need his help, she had chase. he was positive that boy never touched a drug, but he did know more than well blake knew. so he wasn't going to stop the boy from helping alli, cause well he loved alli, and he didn't want her to suffer. but it was too much that day, her asking him to stay, he just couldn't take it. was she doing that on purpose? or was she falling in love with some other person. he didn't know, and he didn't want to think about it right now.

what he wanted was a way out of this, he heard that alliya was now dating chase. that annoyed him, infuriated him. he wanted to bang on the drug selling loser fucks door and punch him in the face. but that would be idiotic and probably make alliya hate his guts. so what he did was punch his room wall again. the school might be angry at how many times he did that, but really it was better than someone's face. though not as satisfying, not even close. so he wrapped his now bleeding hand and left his room. he just couldn't handle being in there at that moment, so he just opened his bedroom door and walked out. his life had been hell since the day he let alliya walk out of his bedroom door and he just stood there watching. he should of stopped her, wiped her tears and did the things he wanted to do. but his anger and pride won out, and now here he was lonely. most of the people whom he thought were his friends, well they weren't really. apparently he was the one that was wrong in this situation, he should of taken her back right away.

well he was sorry he didn't, cause now he was lonely and well he didn't like this feeling at all. he still couldn't help but feel the trust between him and alliya may never fix itself, and that hurt even worse than her dating chase. cause now being friends was probably out of the question. which might of been a blessing if he didn't want to see her so bad. walking around the school, with no place to go, well he finally decided on the student lounge. there were very few people, most preferring the common room and other places to spend their summer. so this seemed like a good quiet place to think. until he recognized a face, and that both made him happy, yet angry and sad. all in one bubble of emotion, he just waved and sat on one of the couches and stared at what seemed to be a jersey shore re-run. a show that both angered and amused him.

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i hate everything about you ,

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words: five hundred eighty three
outfit: here
tags: eliza with alliya
notes: now it is nap time
music: i hate everything about you by three days grace

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[alliya lynn andrews]

I'M THE NEW CANCER

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Alliya sighed. She was in the common room waiting for Chase to be ready so that they could hang out. She hoped that her withdrawals would stay away for the time being. She hated them, and didn't want today to be ruined by them. She looked over towards the boys dorms room when she heard someone walking towards the common room.

She hoped that it was Chase but frowned when it was Blake. She sighed and turned her attention back to the TV that was playing jersey shore. She rolled her eyes and sighed. She took out her phone and texted Chase, before feeling for a reply. She read it before sinking into the seat more. He wasn't coming. Something had come up and he had to do that.

She leaned back in the ciouch with her feet up on the cushions and wrapped her arm around her knees. "Hey" she said softly. She wasn't sure how Blake felt about her, let alone her being with Chase. She needed someone for support, and she needed someone there that knew what they were doing to help her. She was naive and even listened to people that she probably shouldn't.

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198 WORDS | COMPLETE | BLAKE | OUTFIT
LYRICS BY PANIC! AT THE DISCO | TEMPLATE BY ARRO
LEAVE THEM A NICE NOTE HERE!

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[blake caden laurence]

only when i stop to think about it,

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blake wasn't sure how to react when she said hi to him, because well his instincts were always to hug her. but they weren't together, and that'd be strange. especially since she had a boyfriend, and though he should be happy for her. he just couldn't be, it hurt to much to be happy for her, because he still wanted her to be his and his alone. though it was too late for that, because well he had let her slip from his grasps and now she was never going to be his.

realizing he had spent enough time without speaking to her, well he felt rude and sighed. "hey alliya," he said, letting his lips from around her whole name. something he never did in his whole existence. but things between the two were different, and he had to realize it sooner rather than later. because if he didn't make some changes to the way he acted around her, he might become confused. his feelings were jumbled as is, and he didn't need to add anything else to them. "how have you been?" he let it come out dry and nonchalant, but really he cared too much for his own good.

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i hate everything about you ,

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words: two hundred and eight
outfit: here
tags: eliza with alliya
notes: it kind of sucks
music: i hate everything about you by three days grace

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[alliya lynn andrews]

I'M THE NEW CANCER

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Alliya sighed when he wasn't responding. So he must hate her. He probably didn't want to be around her. She rested her chin on her knees and picked up the remote before changing the channel to some other show. She didn't care what it was changed to, as long as it wasn't Jersey Shore. She hated that show and didn't understand it at all.

When he finally responded she smiled. At least he would talk to her. But one thing was different. He called her Alliya. He never called her that. It was always Alli. Sometimes he'd even call her Lia. She shivered before smiling towards him. When he asked how she had been she sighed.

"Good. Dealing with the withdrawals, but with the medicine that Chase gives me it's getting better. Although I've been feeling sick lately." she said quietly. She was hoping that the drug didn't have any side effects. Chase said that there weren't any that were very dangerous and that she would be fine.

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166 WORDS | COMPLETE | BLAKE | OUTFIT
LYRICS BY PANIC! AT THE DISCO | TEMPLATE BY ARRO
maybe blake can tell her that its a side effect and she can be all vfvhdfh

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[blake caden laurence]

only when i stop to think about it,

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her thoughts were obviously wrong when it came to how blake caden laurence felt. he didn't hate her, it was the complete opposite. he needed her, not for any reason but her love had helped his anger not be as huge. every time he tried to go on chat, and he saw that the happy couple was on, or chase was on, well he shut his computer and punched something. he didn't like the built up anger and jealousy he felt towards chase, a guy he'd of probably got along with if he wasn't dating alli. his alli.

but alli wasn't his, and he had to get it through his thick head. he had to admit that she moved on and he needed to do the same thing. though when she said the withdrawls were better, well he got happy then came the sick. "oh. well did you try to go to the infirmary? maybe they can check and make sure nothing too dangerous is going on. cause it could be a side affect or something." cause well if the things were making her sick, well he didn't want her sick and he didn't want her hurt, and he wanted her to go make sure. and if chase was hurting her, even on accident, well blake knew he wouldn't be able to control anything. "soo what else have you been up to?"

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i hate everything about you ,

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words: two hundred and forty
outfit: here
tags: eliza with alliya
notes: poor alli :c
music: i hate everything about you by three days grace

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[alliya lynn andrews]

I'M THE NEW CANCER

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Alliya barely paid attention to the TV. She could care less. She wanted to be hanging out with Chase but something more important came up. He was probably talking to Riley again. She didn't understand why Riley, and all of her friends hated her. She didn't do anything to them, and she wanted to be friends with Chase's friends.

She shook her head when he asked if she went to the infirmary. She was avoiding it as much as she could. She didn't want to go there, and she had only heard bad things about it anyways so it didn't matter. When she heard side effect she shivered. She didn't want to deal with any of this. She wished that she had never touched H in the first place. But it was her way of coping with her parents fighting, and Blake was the one that told her no at first, but she pushed him until he gave in. When he finally gave in, she had him shoot it into her veins giving her the wonderful high that made her forget everything.

"I don't like the infirmary so I haven't gone. I think it may be the withdrawals still, not the side effects. Chase makes sure I take the right amount at the right time." she said softly. She hoped that Chase was doing it right, since of course her life was in his hands. Well, she was almost sure that he wouldn't intentionally hurt her. When he asked her what else she had been up to she shrugged.

"I've been hanging out with Ian again some, before he began watching over Danni. I guess they're back together or something. Other than that I've been alone trying to get over this whole thing. Chase's trying to work things out with Riley since for some reason she hates me, and I've barely seen him lately" she said quietly before looking over at him. She had missed what they had. She use to be around him constantly, and he wouldn't care, and neither would his friends. They shared the same friends so it was fine. Now she was 'Chase's girlfriend' and treated differently by some of the people at school and she hated it.

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370 WORDS | COMPLETE | GABBY WITH BLAKE | OUTFIT
LYRICS BY PANIC! AT THE DISCO | TEMPLATE BY ARRO
maybe blake can tell her that its a side effect and she can be all vfvhdfh

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[blake caden laurence]

only when i stop to think about it,

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blake didn't know how to take all of this in, and he wanted to pull her close and let her tell him about it. but that wouldn't be the right thing to do, and he didn't want to confuse her more, so he leaned his head back and looked at her. "i'm sure he's doing it fine alliya. you'll be okay," he let out, though he was still completely afraid. if chase was doing it wrong, well blake would have to beat the crap out of him.

blake sighed, kind of happy that chase was fucking it up, because it meant just maybe he had a shot at being with her again. he knew about the ian and danni thing, only cause danni's been in their room a couple of times. "well at least you've been hanging out with your brother," he said, trying to make small talk and failing at it horribly. he was better at just sitting and cuddling and just laying there. small talk with the person he loved, he didn't know this day was ever going to happen, and he was upset that it was. "tell him you really want to hang out. i'm sure he will come and do it." he couldn't believe he was giving her relationship advice, and it kind of hurt him.

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words: two hundred and thirty one
outfit: here
tags: eliza with alliya
notes: sorry it's short
music: i hate everything about you by three days grace

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