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Post by rayne sage underwood on Jul 19, 2011 23:26:47 GMT -5
When Rayne woke he wasn't bothered by the arm wrapped around him, though a small bit of fear built up inside of him. He found it easier to be around people close to him, to hug them. Although, he still had to be drunk to cuddle or anything. He looked at the sleeping boys he was wedged between, and slowly scooted away from them. He looked around at some candy wrappers and grimaced. His stomach still hurt, he ate too much and didn't puke. He looked at the others before heading to the bathroom. He shut the door behind him and locked it. Kneeling over the toilet. He sighed for a moment, hating this part so much. Hating everything about this habit. why cant i just stop? He paused for a moment looking at the toilet.
because your stupid ugly and fat! The voice in the back of his mind said. without a second thought he shoved two fingers down his throat. Gagging and dry heaving until it finally came out. He knew he could puke more, and stuck his fingers down his throat. He only made the mistake of not covering the sound. |
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Post by james on Jul 20, 2011 20:21:13 GMT -5
  James felt Rayne make his way out from being between him and CC. He didn't exactly know how all three of them fit on the bed comfortably and able to sleep all through the night. He rolled over and faced the wall, trying to get back to sleep, but then of course he heard it. Rayne was making himself sick. He got up just as he put the fingers back down his throat. He ran across the bathroom and pulled his arm away. It stopped his fingers from jamming down his throat and hitting his gag reflex.
He pulled him up from the floor and looked down at him. "Why?" he asked, knowing the reason but wanting to hear it. "Actually hold that thought. We're going outside so we don't wake up CC" he said pulling the boy with him into the hallway.
"We've both told you you're skinny. A little too skinny. We both care for you? Why do you need to keep doing this?" he asked. He leaned against the wall, still making sure that Rayne didn't try to do anything stupid. In the past 24 hours he hadn't cut, hadn't purged, hadn't done anything harmful, and even ate on his own freewill. They were still friends with him. Why would he resort back after that time?
He looked down at Rayne and kissed him softly. When he finally realized what he was doing he broke the kiss and turned around. "Fuck" he whispered. He knew that Rayne liked CC and vice versa. He was fucked. He didn't know what to do. He began walking away. He wasn't sure what to do. He had just kissed the person that his best friend liked. He had never done that before. They all basically agreed to stay away from those that the others liked.
wearing - click
tag - marcie with rayne
notes - blah stupid muse
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0
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Post by rayne sage underwood on Jul 20, 2011 20:41:51 GMT -5
Before Rayne could puke once more he was pulled away to face James. He looked down when the other asked why, but the next thing he knew he was being pulled outside. HE grimaced when James asked his questions. "Why do you smoke, drink, have pain sex?" He shot back, for once getting annoyed. "It's what I do, and now that Jared is here, i'm fucked. I'm sorry you don't like it, but it is how I am!" He was slightly whispering, trying not to raise his voice at the other.
He was about to say something else, but James' lips met his. He gasped in surprise, and a little in fear. He wasn't sure if he liked it, i mean..who didnt like nice sweet kisses? It was only the fact that it was James and not CC. He stood there awkwardly and when James pulled away and turned around he his eyes got wide.
"Oh hell no! You do not just kiss someone, and walk away!" He half yelled confused. Did James like him that way? Had he given him the impression that he liked him? He chased after James, and tugged on his arm, turning him around. "Mind explaining what that was?" He asked awkwardly. |
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Post by james on Jul 20, 2011 21:26:55 GMT -5
James sighed when he asked all the questions that he had before. "I drink because. I don't even know for that one. I hadn't drank until Carson and Aaron basically convinced me to. Smoking, other than cigarettes are the same reason. Cigarettes because I'm addicted. And the sex. Don't get me started. It's not as dangerous as you puking, cutting, and probably starving yourself." he replied back. When he said that it was basically Jared's fault he shook his head. "You're letting him win. You're letting him control you. Show him you're better than that. You can do it. You have me and CC" he said also whispering. They were trying to keep it quiet to make sure not to wake up CC.
When he kissed him and Rayne gasped he pulled back. He was screwed. He didn't know why he did, sure the kid was cute, nice, caring, and even lovable, but fuck, CC liked him. It was basically against their rules to go after someone one of the other guys liked. It made it... difficult in a way. They usually all had different tastes anyway.
When he had turned around and moved a few feet away. He heard Rayne half yell at him, he could hear the confusion in his voice. When Rayne tugged on him he stopped walking and turned. James leaned against the wall and put his hand in his head and slowly lowered himself to the ground in the same position. "I don't even know. I'm fucked though. I'll be dead by the end of the night. That's for sure" he said. If anyone saw this and told CC he'd be dead. Let alone one of the other guys? Yeah fucked. Royally.
wearing - click
tag - marcie with rayne
notes - blah stupid muse
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0
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Post by rayne sage underwood on Jul 24, 2011 0:54:08 GMT -5
Rayne sighed when he listed off the reasons he did what he did. When he said that his addiction wasn't as dangerous Rayne shook his head. "Its just as dangerous as me cutting myself! You have scars from knives like I do. Don't you know how much that scares me? The idea of losing you..." He looked away. He didn't know how he could feel so strongly for him. They hadn't known each other that long, and he was already attached.
Maybe it was because he never had friends, or because of the connection James and him had. They went through the same things, they both liked pain. He sighed and knelt down by James looking him in the eye. "I know I have you guys...but if he comes near me...If he threatens you guys..I know I'll cave in." He said weakly.
When James explained why he kissed him, he wasn't sure if his thoughts were correct. They did care about each other very much, and Rayne was the only one who could fully understand James. He smiled lightly and took James' face in his hands. "I think I know why." He said softly before kissing the boy. He felt confused as he kissed him. Half liking it, half wanting to stop. Whether it was from fear he couldn't tell. [[ uguhbjfnkdm, its a bit shit but here ya go..]] |
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Post by james on Aug 3, 2011 12:03:31 GMT -5
James sighed when Rayne shook his head. He knew that people could see his problem as dangerous, but it wasn’t in a way. If the person didn’t use a knife, it was fine. Although usually knives were involved. He needed the pain and that was an easy way to cause pain. Never too deep, but usually just enough to scar. When Rayne said that it scared him he sighed. The idea of losing Rayne hurt him to think about too.
Regardless of how long they knew each other, it was always the same, they had connected. They had so much in common compared to the others. They were able to relate to each other with their past experiences. It was simple really. ”If he threatens us? I’ll kick his ass. Don’t worry about him. You have multiple people looking out for you. He won’t be able to hurt you.” He said smiling. It was true, CC, Aaron, Jinxx, himself and even Carson if he convinced him to.
When Rayne said that he thinks that he knows why James kissed him to looked at him. When Rayne kissed him he was surprised, but quickly got over it and kissed him back. He tried to deepen the kiss, but broke it before he went too far. ”We can’t. CC. Don’t please”
wearing - click
tag - marcie with rayne
notes - blah stupid muse
credit - ashybomb @ caution 2.0
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