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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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florencia hadn't ever believed in anything, not even herself. she had always thought she wasn't worth anything, even when she was constantly told otherwise. her mother had always told her she was smart enough to do whatever she pleased, but she never believed that. she always thought someone else out there was way smarter than her, and that was true. her roommate zofia was way smarter than her, and though she loved the redhead, she still felt horrible around her. both her roommates were so beautiful too, she didn't know how to take it all in. so maybe being here, wasn't the greatest plan. but it was better than anything else she had, at least here she could have some help with her problems and her self-esteem. her issues kept her thinking horrible thoughts about herself, because they were true to her. to her, she was ugly, fat, disgusting, stupid, immature, selfish and just all around unlovable. she knew her parents didn't like her because it was obvious, and her friends. they'd probably leave her in the dust at some point, so she had originally stayed away from relationships but she decided it could be nice to try, and she did. but her relationship history was sketchy and she was afraid to let someone in all the way and be turned down.

but twenty questions seemed like a fare way to get to know each other. since she really liked him, telling him some things couldn't hurt? as long as alex wasn't right, and he wasn't planning to throw her away in five seconds. but he was here? she was crying and he was still standing there, so he had to care at least a little bit, to not just walk away from her. his question made a smile appear on her lips, "oh. well that's not a complicated question at all." it wasn't, but really she didn't know why she hated her name so much. it wasn't a horrible name like gertrude and it was actually a beautiful name. but she hated most things about herself and she didn't know who she was. "i guess it's because i feel like a name solidifies you, and says you have to be that person. i don't know who florencia erin reiner is and i'm not sure i want to be her."

she sucked at thinking about questions for these things, so many bland questions kept popping in her head, but she wanted to think of something different. but she had no clue what to ask, and she frowned slightly as she concentrated before thinking about a good one and smiling at him. "how would you describe me?" she hoped it was good, even if she believed otherwise, it was always nice to here someone compliment her. even if she constantly brought herself back down, it was good to be happy for a minute or two.

she watched him as he got the sketch pad and took his hand, swinging it slightly and smiling. "please lets go," she said laughing. she was always so hungry, she couldn't help it. puking the food out always cleared her stomach for more food, and she liked the feeling she got when she was full. it was nice, then the puking could be painful and that was good. cause she knew she deserved that pain, she deserved to be hurt after all the hurt she caused everyone in her life. probably including mason, not that she ever understood the bad things she did. she always felt like they happened and it was why she couldn't ever feel good about herself. karma for all the things she did to everyone else she was supposed to love and care for. but she wasn't going to think about those, or she was going to try not to. not while she was trying to have fun, and be a good person. not now, she'll save the self-mutilation for later, when she was alone and could scream at herself and cry without worrying about making someone angry or upset at her. it was what she always did, to try and protect the others from her, her and her horrible ways.

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who says your not pretty,

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words: seven hundred and twenty two
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: not much
music: who says by selena gomez

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[mason alexander garner]

mason's history fell into the palm of a dead mans hands. it was like for so many years he was a robot, and when he saw his little sister in tears after his father decided to lay hands on her instead of him well that was when hell froze over in that place he called home. mason was not interesting at all in his opinion, because he had always done things that interested his father. he wanted to appease the man and live up to his standards and most boys wanted that bond with their father, but mason had to accept he'd never be good enough with things he hid from him. the male on male interactions...the drawing...the not hooking up with random girls at parties further then a certain extent...there was kind of too much to really drowned out, but here he stood a fighting chance for himself and was really starting to find out how much he actually cared. florencia, though she chose not to like that name and that was fine was the most amazing girl in his opinion. his mother would really be proud of the brakes he was putting up, the gestures he was putting forth, and well in all honesty the honesty he was finding in his heart. when he looked at her he saw...a teenage girl that may or may not be on the same path as him, but none the less they were good together. the whole relationship thing...he had them with guys, but no girls would give him the time of day, but he knew that life well more so now then then had its reasons and its thorns. the beautiful flower he was flustered by well she had a story just like everyone else, and petal by petal he was taking her in and she was taking the time to do the same. that was more then anyone had really done for him besides his mother...that meant more then she could know, but he was just fixated on creating a relationship with no thorns.


the game well, that was just an idea, because the two had yet to ask all the important questions he kind of thought. he really liked flo, but he wanted to get a better sense of her. he would tell her anything just so that he knew it would work. he really wanted this to work, because little did she know it had just been a small period of time, but the girl had him wrapped around her pinky. he smiled back at her when she said the question was not complicated at at all. well, that worked for him then, because he did not want to upset her about it. the question merely came to mind and it was something he had wondered sense she had told him her full name. "alright" he replied with a smile and when she explained it to him fully he could understand that, but it seemed to him like that would be more of a solidifying who you were type statement and for that matter who was mason alexander garner? she was entitled to that view though and it made sense sort of. "oh, i see" he said not knowing what else to with a smile on his face. though he slightly understood it that was interesting to him...now he understood. "well, its all good i like flo" he said winking at her playfully.


the questions probably had to be the hardest part. he had no clue what his next question would be but he would think of it all in due time. then her question played off her lips and well usually that could be dangerous territory with a girl, but he thought he would just be honest with her that is the best he could do. "well, without question i would describe you as beautiful and fun to be around, but if i had to go more in depth i would say the beauty lies further then the skin you are wearing i see it coming from the inside as well." he said and paused for a second. "i also see someone who is kind, down to earth and slightly afraid of what the world holds for her and possibly of who she is, but she is just a teenager and i feel the same way about the world so its completely natural" he added, but he wasn't done. "and when i look into your eyes i see warmth, passion, strength, and sometimes a bit of sorrow, but again its natural." he replied and licked his lips. "most importantly, i would say i see honesty when I see you..your not afraid to cry, your not afraid to take a chance, and well to me it seems you're not afraid to be flo and whether or not you can identify with that miss...that is how i see you and that is how i would describe you" he said hoping that answered her question.



the girl took his held his hand as the walked out of the room. he enjoyed that feeling very much. it was just a simple gesture, but to him it meant something more and that was pry odd, but he didn't mind that he was odd...she seemed to not so much either which worked for him. "first stop food or garden?" he asked remembering her mention she was hungry. he wasn't opposed to any of it. he could grab a bite or so. it wasn't like he didn't eat. his guilty pleasures involved food often times, but he didn't notice that she would like leave and go throw up after their little foodcapades. which was awful on his half, but when he did find out he would be there for her one hundred percent and help her turn it around, because he didn't want to see her hurt herself. that would pain him more then anything, because she was such a lovely person...she didn't deserve to be in that sort of pain in his opinion. though it was bias he couldn't help but believe he was right. no one deserved pain..even if self inflicted something like that could be uncontrollable facing it alone.

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W O R D S * noofwords ;;one thousand thirty-eight
T H O U G H T S * awww
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M U S I C *silence ;;the silence
T A G G E D * whofor ;;flo
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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florencia wasn't going to push mason into telling him his history or even why he was here. cause she wasn't sure she was ready to tell him, so they could both do it when the were ready. even though she kind of wanted to tell him, but how did you bring it up? she wasn't just gonna waltz up to him and smile before exclaiming 'hey mason guess what? i'm here cause i have borderline personality disorder. what is it? its some disorder and i pretty much hate myself. everything about me. yeah i know. stupid huh? i also cut myself and puke out all that tasty food you cook me. i'm selfish fat and just horrible so you should just go away now.' she wasnt' sure that'd be a good idea, cause she didn't want to have him go away, but if he wanted to go away she wasn't going to stop him. she'd never stop him for doing something he wanted to do. even if it pained her to think about him leaving her. they weren't exactly an item but she liked him and his company was always nice to her.

even that answer could be tied back to her disorder, because she didn't like who she was. she never had and her name was a part of her. so she hated it. she wanted to be someone new and different. so she wasn't florencia, she was flo. florencia was a horrible being, someone who only thought of herself. that's how flo saw it, she didn't like herself or the girl she was. if she cared about other people she wouldn't of cut herself and almost bleed out. she wouldn't of tried to kill herself. she didn't even do that right, cause well here she was. alive and well. or as well as a bulimic cutter with a personality disorder could be. she didn't tell anyone about her disorder, cause well if you say 'hey i have a personality disorder.' most people assume you are some horrible being who wants to kill people. that wasn't flo, not entirely. yeah she has thought about killing people,but she'd never act upon that. cause it was mostly jokes and about people who have done things wrong to her family. but when he said he liked flo she felt a blush rise on her cheeks, "i'm glad you like her."

then he began to describe her and she listened, picking each word apart and denying it all in her head. how could she be beautiful? she was so fat and her hair was practically lifeless. what did she have on the inside other than her guts? well there was her selfishness, she was so selfish and she knew it. she was afraid of who she was, he had that right and of what the world held. it held pain, and that wasn't something flo wanted. not only pain but it held things she didn't want to see. when he mentioned what he saw in her eyes she could feel herself tearing up. because she didn't realize so much of herself was out in the open. but it was true, she was full of sorrow. the rest she wasn't so sure of. what was she passionate of? when was she ever strong? or even warm?

now even though that was what she thought it was very much untrue. she was beautiful and she was even too skinny because she never kept anything in her system. her insides were just as amazing as the outsides. she wasn't selfish, cause she constantly thinks of other people before herself. her own happiness could wait, as long as her friends and the people she loved were happy. she'd also make sure people she didn't know as well were happy too. she even trusted a little too easily and opened herself up for hurt. even if she didn't believe any of what he said, it was true. every last word he spoke had been true. she was strong, even if she could never realize it and she was passionate about people and making them happy which tied it all up with the warmth that filled her body. the tears that fell down her face were happy, because she liked how he saw her. it was how she wished people would see her. but he could of been lying? right? maybe he just didn't want to hurt her feelings. "quit whining and just be happy for once," she thought to herself and smiled. "well i like how you see me..i wish i could see it though." her smile faltered slightly because she wanted to see all of that in her. but she couldn't. she tried so hard but she couldn't.

she didn't have to think twice about his question as they walked. "the kitchen." food was more important then most things to flo because food was something she could control. her feelings were so sparatic and she didn't like it. but food, it wasn't a feeling she controlled how much of it she put in her mouth. even if her body said no more, she didn't care. she just stuffed more and more until she felt like she couldn't move. and that was when she'd race to the bathroom and puke it all up. cause even if she controlled how much food she put into her body, she didn't want to get fat. so out came all the food. "soo whats your next question," she said kind of anxiously. she really wanted to know what it was, cause she hated anticipation. which was why she was so curious about his surprise, cause she liked surprises. but she didn't like being told she had a surprise coming. cause she constantly waited and thought over and over about what it might be. so hopefully she'll find out soon and she won't lose too much sleep over it.

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who says your not pretty,

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words: one thousand and thirty
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: YUSS THANK YOU BRAIN!
music: who says by selena gomez

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[mason alexander garner]

honestly, mason had told her a little bit about why he was here and that his father was dead, but he did not tell her all of it which was probably something she should know being that he really liked her and that well, that she was a good person and she wouldn’t judge him for it he was sure. it really hadn’t come up and he honestly hadn’t talked about it with anyone yet. the boy ended up here having to say goodbye to his unstable mother and little sister who was probably not so stable herself after having to watch her father’s body go out the door. the girl even probably blamed herself a little bit, but it wasn’t her fault the man was sick and started to beat her like he had mason and went as far as to coming home drunk and molested...and then walked in on the wrong picture when it came to him and the guy he was sleeping with. it was all one big mess and some painted mason to be the monster but others knew the truth. being her and trying to find who you were after the years and years of the abuse was a difficult task. mason felt brain washed, but he knew he wanted to find a nice girl and treat her in the way his father never treated his mother. though he didn’t know himself her disorder was kind of a hatred to herself. he could not tell she was so different to him he could not see it at all. it would pry scare him just a bit deep down, because when mason cared for someone he would do anything for them. he’d be there through their pain...through their weak points...he’d never let them see him break..he was so nice that no one would detect his past just like flo was so fooling that or he was blind..he just liked to see her smile and be with her it made all his troubles go away and that feeling was so unique to him. it was nice.


the girl was cute sitting there in all her glory and when he said he liked her cheeks were tainted with a hint of pink or a blush if you will. it was kind of interesting how honesty made her blush. it was funny how the simplest things brought people to certain places. all of these people at this place they became like family unit and everyone was finding their own gold. sure stuff didn’t mesh. it was kind of weird how much these people were really better around other people, but they couldn’t bring themselves to subside around themselves and their own pains when they were alone. how was it easier being around others? the notion almost seemed silly to him, but then there was flo and it seemed so perfect to him. he felt alive with her and that he could be completely silent and it would still be a perfect moment. they could be doing something like romantic looking at the stars or having a dinner date in he felt at ease even if he was nervous. ”no, i’m glad i met her” he said his eyes looking over her and then into hers.



now even though that was what she thought it was very much untrue. she was beautiful and she was even too skinny because she never kept anything in her system. her insides were just as amazing as the outsides. she wasn't selfish, cause she constantly thinks of other people before herself. her own happiness could wait, as long as her friends and the people she loved were happy. she'd also make sure

the girl was constantly there for her roommates for others and well he found it to be a great thing, but when she was searching within her for the things he named out when it came to seeing her in that manner well he just wished she could stop and realize that for herself, but if it took every day to remind her well then mason was going to remind her every day! that was just how mason felt like he was going to be. when she started crying he didn’t know what to think and then she said she liked how he saw her she just wished she could stay the same. he moved his thumb to wipe the happy tear away. ”would you mind if i stick around to show you all those things in yourself?” he asked her with a smile.


he smiled when she said the kitchen and nodded heading that direction with her. hey, if she wanted to eat then he wasn’t going to stop her he could draw her a picture after that was no big deal. his hand swung with hers as they made their way there. he had never thought about why she wanted to eat all the time with him he just figured that he found her when she was hungry? no big deal. then she asked him what his next question was going to be and he bit his lip. ”oh right.” he said thinking up his next question. he figured he’d keep with simple then move up to the harder stuff. he had twenty more questions about to be nineteen but whatever, it still worked for him ”alright, i am assuming you like music, because who doesn’t why don’t you explain to me what some of your favorite music is, because i mean songs are kind of prominent now a days and they send a message no?” he said kind of explaining why he wanted to know what some of her favorite music was it wasn’t just to know it was to get the feel of the message behind it for her and get to know her in that sense. he thought it was an excellent question.


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W O R D S * noofwords ;;nine eighty sixt
T H O U G H T S * awww
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M U S I C *silence ;;the silence
T A G G E D * whofor ;;flo
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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florencia would never ever judge anyone, she wasn't that type of girl. okay so she did sometimes judge people for certain, slutty, actions. or she did. she had always took her virginity serious, but when she kind of screwed that up, well she couldn't exactly bitch at people for it anymore. plus it was really the more open people, cause she would never do that. hell she still didn't go around throwing the fact that she lost her virginity around. well one time. but it was during summer's little question things and she didn't throw it around. she just answered a simple question. a very simple question. but she never felt in a place to judge anyone, with all the things going on in her head and the thoughts she had about people at times. she always felt so, selfish when she thought about harming herself. or even when she wants to tell her dad or stepmom how the treat her, but it's not her place and its why she feels so horrible inside. she didn't believe in putting her own burdens on others, so she kept in side until she felt like she was gonna explode. then she ripped open her skin to let it all flow out of her body, just to start the process all over again.

she was really better around all these people she could call friends, then back home where everything was just so messed up. she was so much better so her dad let her go home and well, next thing she knew. she wasn't better anymore. she was worse. cause more people decided to hurt her and everything had gone all wacky in her head and they decided to send her back. but her blush got worse when he said he was glad to of met her. "i'm happy to of met you too," she said before kissing his cheek and sighing with relief. she was so glad he liked her, because if he didn't. well her life would suck. well suck more than it already did.

flo knew, deep down, that she wasn't a horrible person. there were days when she tried to tell herself that, mostly when she was upset. though if she was happy, she was telling herself how horrible she was. it didn't make any sense. but it was her. she was either building herself up or tearing herself down.

she couldn't help but bite her lip when he asked to stick her just to show her that she's all the things he said she was. the girl didn't believe the words about herself and she didn't want him to be with her, when someone else deserved him. she felt kind of selfish taking mason for herself. he could help so many other people, she would always be broken, there just was no fixing her. mason had to get that through his head, but she didn't want to tell him to go away. it was nice to be selfish for once, to hold onto him until he decides to leave her for being a horrible person. so she just nodded, not trusting her voice at that moment.

flo always wanted food, she was consstantly hungry and it kind of made her happy. until she ate, then she felt like crap again and wanted to break down and cry. which was when she puked it all up, feeling all better again afterwards. the music question took her back a moment, until one popped in her head. "i don't know, one of my favorite songs is um who says by selena gomez. one sh'es pretty and i kind of wish i was her sometimes but it makes me feel that i'm okay the way i am and there is no one better than me. at least until the song ends and i realize i'm the same old horrible flo," she said softly, telling him the god honest truth. so she decided to ask him a question that made her think of herself and the time her heart was snapped in half when daniel walked out of that room to leave her alone and sad. she leaned her head on his shoulder and whispered softly, almost to the point where he probably couldn't hear it, "have you ever had your heartbroken?"

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words: seven hundred and forty two
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tags: janet with mason
notes: [color=747170sorry it's shorter:(

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[mason alexander garner]

in time to come mason would learn a lot about flo and he was going to take his time getting to know her because he in fact found her to be a real beautiful person. the girl was going to have a hard time accepting her true beauty inside and out and she’d never understand how amazing of a person she was, but mason would spend a lifetime showing her..someday and when that someday came he’d be the happiest guy ever. it may be weird, because he wasn’t a man of many words and he in his own opinion had become a bland being, but she seemed to enjoy him which was a great feeling to him. not many girls he had come across had well even given him the time of day like flo had. mason was the kind of boy that felt like he had to conquer the world to impress a girl, but here flo was and she was sweet and she was talking to him and hanging out with him and well he felt like he had somehow accomplished that and he didn’t really have to do anything, nothing at all. it was as if it was a lazy effort, but she hadn’t mentioned anything when they first met or now so he felt like he did a proficient job in catching her attention? he just hoped he could muster and manage to keep it that way.

the boy had no clue yet of her history back home and why she was here, so to him she was normal, but she’d always be normal to him just have insecurities which was a lot more natural than a lot of people thought. the pink in her cheeks only rose more and he couldn’t help but allow his smile to go wide. mason had butterflies around her so to see her blush a little kind of put him in a weird sense of ease for a moment. ”guess we got luck on our sides?” he said sense she was happy to have met him too and that smile of his was not leaving his face till his jaw fell off, but it was okay because they had surgeries and stuff to fix that kind of thing right?



mason was stuck for a moment looking at the beautiful girl on his side. her figure was going to be stuck in his head like a song...his favorite tune, but not just her figure her person, because she was great. mason secretly wondered what she saw in him, because he didn’t feel like a great guy at all, but he wasn’t going to question it, because he just wanted to spend a lot of time with her.





there was silence after he had spoken and said to her what he thought of her and gave her a list of things she was and what he saw. that was okay either she was tearing it apart in her head, because he knew that woman tended to do that or somehow she was accepting it. it was sad that he thought the first one more than anything but that was kind of a natural thing to do when it came to well being a girl. it was okay he let the silence stay among them for a moment and just held onto her like he had been. he took in her scent and well it was nice, but he wasn’t obvious like it..like he was some creep smelling her. was it possible that he had found a girl this fast? yes, it was and he didn’t plan on letting her go, because he was selfish, but it was okay to be selfish about her, because well she was in his opinion rather flawless.

mason had not yet been around flo enough to know she was constantly hungry, but he thought it was cute their little greetings they could go eat and hang out and well he was a guy so he could put food down and then he’d go and work it off later. ”you’re not horrible” was his instant response as he quirked his brow. ”why would you say that you’re...in my opinion way prettier than her..i mean she’s one of those nice famous people, but well im just going to have to listen to this song of hers.” he said thinking on it and kind of worried she called herself horrible. what was going on with that? her whisper was soft and well he smiled while she was resting her head on him. he heard the word heartbroken and he figured she was probably asking. ”i’ve never really been in a committed relationship...” he said hoping it wasn’t a problem. i’ve always wanted one, but i was just kind of used as a toy and i got use to it i suppose so its how i lived back home..

[/i] he said thinking about his male partners and such. ”i think in a more general sense i’ve had my heartbroken with what i thought was family and the reality of it all when it came to my dad being an ass, and my mothers pain...that broke my heart.” he said giving her a more honest depiction of how he was heartbroken, because he loved his mother and she was a sweet woman, but she took his abuse and she was really unstable because of it.


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W O R D S * noofwords ;;nine zero three
T H O U G H T S * suckage?
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M U S I C *silence ;;the silence
T A G G E D * whofor ;;flo
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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florencia would soon learn that there was no getting rid of mason, that he would stick with her forever. because soon enough she would have a ring on her finger. she would do anything to stay with mason garner and become florencia erin garner. why? because she would come to love the boy then she could ever imagine. people would assume she was pregnant, because in fact they didn't know each other long. but did that really matter? if you found the one you truely loved, did what people say matter? yes, because it would come to upset the girl. make her angry and act out. she wasn't an angry girl, and she was even sweet to those who hurt others because she felt that it wasn't her place to judge. or she at least talked to them if they said something to her, because that was the right thing to do. right? she would punch a wall and a person in times to come. because she would just be so angry, and so frustrated she wouldn't know what to do. she'd also become very sad at the fact that she could never protect the people she loved because they were constantly getting hurt around her. she wanted to hold them and make them feel better. she would do it for summer and again for mason. her mason. the one person she would forever love with all her small heart.

but right now. she didn't know mason well enough, and they had only just begun to get to know each other. but soon enough he would know all of her and she would know all of him and both would still be willing to stay and be with each other. that's what love was. to stay even if there was more bad then good. of course flo would always have her doubts that mason would leave her for someone better, because who wouldn't want someone better? who wouldn't want someone who wasn't fucked up in the head? who could be happy all the time. now just staring at his smile, she wished that for once she could have something and be happy. because if there was anything she wanted, it would be mason. to finally be happy and accept that someone cared about her and that she was pretty. but she wouldn't be able to. even after being engaged she would argue with hope saying she wasn't beautiful or good because that's how she felt. she was such a horrible person right?

right. because only horrible people hurt themselves, only horrible people thought selfish thoughts. of course her thoughts weren't selfish. why wouldnt' she want her father to care about her? for ashley to stop being the way she was and for her dad to give her some form of attention. but ashley needed it, and she didn't want to take from her younger sister. she would only feel horrible, but here at school. here she was happy more than she was at home. she smiled more often because her roommates were so sweet. then of course she'd get new roommates when she moved into mason's room. she'd have christian drew carver. a boy who was so sweet and caring. she would love him with all her heart and do anything for him when he was sad. she didn't want to see the happy boy sad, cause it just hurt her so much.

she snapped out of her thoughts to look at mason when he said they had luck on their sides and smiled at him. "i guess we do." she never thought of herself as lucky before but here she was, with the best person by her side. how much luckier could one get? but she would feel always feel bad for taking him away from someone more worthy of him. because how could she deserve such an amazing person? she wouldn't ever feel deserving but she would feel special every day of her life, because he would be hers forever. she would feel happy that he choose her over someone prettier, and better. who wouldn't feel special? being chosen by the best person in the world.

of course the boy would soon learn of all of flo's flaws, yet still stay. he'd learn about her bulimia, about the cutting, her insecurities and her horrid view of herself. but he would stay, tell her things to try and make her feel better. make her promise to go to him when she was about to go and do the stupid things. of course some days she would do it but she would cry to him afterwards. tell him that she was so sorry and ask him not to hate her. those were always her first thoughts, that he would hate her forever. she would doubt herself constantly, doubt how he could feel anything for her. then a horrible person by the name of jay would tell her about her worst nightmares and she'd almost kill herself. because without mason, she wouldn't be anyone.but even now he was telling her that she wasn't horrible and she looked at him and bit her lip.

she didn't want to lie, but she didn't want to tell him about how horrible she was. why? because then he'd leave and she didn't want to leave. "no, she's way prettier. because i'm so fat. i don't know. i just know that i'm horrible, i guess. but the song is good." she bit on her lip and expected him to notice her fat, her ugliness and run away. because wasn't that what guys wanted? someone pretty to hold on their arms? she just wasn't that and she knew it. she shut her mouth and just listened to him, not wanting to have him worry about her as they walked. when he said that he was used as a toy she just shook her head. "you didn't deserve that mason. you deserve to be with the best person and you shouldn't settle for less." she frowned, because that would be advice she should also take, but she wouldn't. she never took her own advice. she frowned again when she said his family broke his heart and she wanted to hold him because she understood. "i'm so sorry mason," she bit her lip and looked away. he didn't ask her the same question but she felt like she should tell him. "we were taken away from my mom when i was little and then my stepmom always liked ashley more than me, and well my dad did whatever my stepmom wanted. i kind of ended up with nothing. so i guess that broke my heart, when he choose them over me." she bit her lip, "then it was broken again with daniel." why was she telling him this? she didn't know, but she'd end it here. not wanting to scare him away because after daniel came one of the really horrible things she did. used someone for sex. she would never get over that, and forever hate herself for it.

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words: one thousand two hundred and twenty-five
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: hahah<3
music: who says by selena gomez

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[mason alexander garner]

mason alexander garner, would come to fall madly in love with this woman. he would not need any other sould on this planet minus family. that sounded harsh and yes he would enjoy the company of friends, but the one important thing to him was her affections. he would come to win them and come to put a ring on it. mister garner would spend a lifetime showing her just how special she was to the world. the girl was honestly a prize. the boy would never care what anyone said about their relationship, but florencia erin reiner was slightly more fragile than he. the male would come to learn this and then top it with showing her that it didn’t matter to him. there would be a evil rumor she was pregnant he would post up posters that did in fact state he was a virgin to the female being, so that could not be possible unless someone was accusing her of cheating and if she had cheated mason would have been broken....would they be engaged? yeah, his love for her would conquer all, but the baby would not be his so w...this would be a cheesy scenario..she was all his. forever and ever the end.


through sickness and in health...the girl should see it coming the ring, but she would be caught in trying to get him to have something better from time to time. he would indeed tell her she was his better and it wasn’t just for a smile. he said it meant it believed it. the smile playing on his face was an expression of how happy he was spending time with her in the now and the two of them had really just met in reality and her insecurities with the tears had already played out and mason wasn’t walking away he was smiling, he was getting to know her. she was human! he liked that about her more than anything. he had his insecurities to and he was sick as well, but he also had a nice balance of health. the girl did too it was just going to take finding inner peace that would save her. she wasn’t a horrible person by any means. people had made her this way...not herself. her mind was just feeding into the sickness, but mason would see passed it all, because he saw all the things she didn’t. he’d see beauty, he’d see happiness, he’d see a awesome future, and more importantly he’d see misses florencia erin garner and fixate it that way. it was that permanent kind of loving.



the history of the two with their families weren’t the best. they both had broken families. his being that his father broke it with his addiction to quench his thirst, sexual needs, and his fists. hers being that the attention was drawn away from her bringing her down. it was kind of opposite. he had too much attention too much and too much pressure. hers was not enough attention. both lacked at one thing. affection. his mother’s mental state would draw her away from herself therefore it would be hard for her to be anything less than controlled. her mother was taken away from her in the sense she wouldn’t have her mother’s loving she needed. his father was taken over by demons. her father was taken over by her step mother. in the sense there was more similarities than the two would know as of now, but they’d come to learn in the future.


the girl was deep in thought and he watched as she snapped out of it and smiled at that smile. it was beautiful and already he would keep it as a mental picture and it’d be stuck in his mind. ”i know so”[ he said biting his lip. the small cocky side of him was showing which wasn’t something that occurred often, but in this particular moment it wasn’t a bad thing. he felt lucky that she at random decided she’d eat with him and show him the kitchen. he’d feel lucky forever that he met her. beauty was more than skin deep and even if she doubted her beauty he saw it! she was selfless though she thought herself to be selfish. she was gorgeous even though she tended to think otherwise in the sense that there was someone more attractive. she was sweet...like american honey....what more could mason want?


mason was listening to flo her crushing words silently. he almost looked remote or like a robot. this all puzzled him...how such a beautiful girl could be so down on herself. it would be beyond him, but flo made him smile and she honestly didn’t know how mason’s heart was going to progress. he listened to the pretty brown eyed brunette until she stopped speaking. then he began to speak stopping the two of them and turning her around. ”once upon a time, not many moons ago, but maybe a mere week, a couple days...there was this boy who came to south haven, maine to attend hawthorne academy. the boy being new discovered there was a chat room linked to the site and when he signed on he discovered this beautiful girl named flo, but her full name is florencia erin reiner, but still she prefers flo. the name in and of itself is beautiful to match her inside and her outside. sadly the boy was slightly hungry, but being the caring soul she was and slightly hungry herself flo offered to show mason alexander garner where the kitchen was. the two ended up making this famous pizza that mason became crazy over thanks to flo it was more than satisfying to his taste buds. they were completely silly through the process, but it was fun and a great time and mason’s tummy didn’t go without bearing a meal because he was lost and the new guy. after that the boy walked the girl back to her room and he met nola. the next time he went to her room he met her roommate summer and he brought nola some ham. now the two are in each other’s midst and they’re going to go get something to eat...they’re playing twenty one questions...and mason would just like to tell flo that her step mom is as blind as a bat...he doesn’t care about ashley...and he does wish her father would open his eyes and be a man.. and that daniel guy is a damn fool, but his loss is soon to be my gain cause...our story isn’t over it nearly just begun” he said and then stopped smiling at her and continued to go.

W O R D S * one thousand one thirteen ;;t
T H O U G H T S * awww
;;uh uh sucky :S
M U S I C *silence ;;dsakfdjakd(:
T A G G E D * whofor ;;florencia erin reiner (gabby<33)
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

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florencia erin reiner or flo garner as she would soon want to be called, would forever love mason with all her heart. no matter what happened, even after everything. she'd punch someone for him, even when she hates to punch people or hate them. well she'd forever hate alexander cavelier, and she'd punch him. she would do that because he made her mason sad and it'd hurt the poor girl too much. she just couldn't handle that, or well she didn't want to handle that. she didn't like seeing mason sad or anyone sad but especially not him. it would hurt her way too much.

though they both had broken families, soon they will all be one happy family. him and mason and later on through life they would have a daughter and be happy as happy can be. flo would fall in love with his mother and sister. in time, she will have a family who loved her instead of feeling really hated. she would instead of going home for the holidays, she'd go to mason's home. a home that she would feel like her's. it would be what she would refer to as home for the rest of her life, because that was what home should feel like. a place you could feel so loved. it would be a great feeling for the girl. and a new one at that.

she blushed when he said he knew so and he smiled. it wasn't random though. if anything, she was lucky that it was him who was new and needing someone to show them around. she would have showed anyone who needed help. she was lucky that it wasn't a guy like alex who needed help because that would be very unlucky. but instead she got the sweet and caring and cute boy named mason alexander garner.

flo was a bit surprised when mason just stopped and turned her around because she kind of expected him to walk away from her. why would he stay with the broken girl? who wanted someone broken? it would be a waste of time and energy and easier to go for the nice and caring whole girls. like summer or zofia. they were better than her. though as he began to talk, she listened intently. smiling at him and by the end tears had formed in her eyes again but this time happy tears but she had no time to react before they started to walk again. she stopped him and hugged him because thats all she wanted to do. it was her only reaction to that story was to hug him and just let the happy tears fall down her face. finally she pulled away and took his again. "now to the kitchens we go, whose turn is it to ask a question?" with all the random discussions, she got kind of lost in who was to ask the next question.

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words: five hundred and one
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: <.< this sucks D:
music: who says by selena gomez

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[mason alexander garner]

the truth of the matter was love at first site or bit would be the story of these to. they would have their struggles and their turns left and right would present new challenges. their emotions would depict love, sorrow, anger, and stress....but that was natural there was a lot of things that the young couple would need to overcome they were after all YOUNG. that wasn’t stopping mason from longing for miss reiner even if the two had merely met not too long ago over a meal and an awesome one at that. the two would triumph and spend the rest of their lives together.

broken families wouldn’t prove they couldn’t last it would prove the two the exact opposite and it would allow them to gain a beautiful baby girl but anything with florencia to him would be beautiful. any given moment even if it wasn’t exactly a happy moment. it was something they would conquer and it’d end up a part of their story which he’d always consider beautiful. any place with her was a home and well his mother already adored her and his sister would come to love her. he was sure that could be trouble baby photo’s and stories of him to embarrass him considering well he was her older brother and well she was one of those cute little girls that would like to do that. not that it would bother him too much he wasn’t trying to hide anything from flo.


when her cheeks flushed pink he always smiled it was cute to him. he turned pink from time to time with her as well. he was lucky to have and awesome guide and a beautiful one at that. who wouldn’t love to have the girl that was pretty and of interest giving them a tour around the school they just kind of got too? a crazy person maybe, but then it was a school full of crazies so maybe he was normal after all? his thoughts were so random it made him smile a bit wider.


walking away for mason from flo. yeah, that wasn’t an option no matter how tough things got. no matter if she told him to walk away or not it wasn’t in the cards for him! what would make him walk..not his feet they’d be paralyzed at the thought of it. well he would and they would. to him she wasn’t broken, she was whole, but she didn’t see it that way and that was why of course she’d push away for awhile, but want him all the same. she was nice and caring and in his opinion better than her roommates. zofia was a kind, caring, little redhead and he’d never judge her for her phobia’s, but she was not so innocent and mason wasn’t innocent innocent, but he was. he had never had sexual interactions with a female. it was pry different? but it was his story and he could wait....he didn’t give her time to react to his story and he should have and he saw the tears and the smile. when she stopped and hugged him he hugged her back kind of wading back and forth a dance maybe in a silly way and he ended up dipping her before she pulled back. ”the kitchens yes, and it’s my question...” he said remembering her was about heartbreak. ”okay, this is for selfish and future motives, but describe the perfect date?” he said smiling widely her way.

W O R D S * five eighty four ;;t
T H O U G H T S * awww
;;mason loves flo(:
M U S I C *you shook me by acdc ;;dsakfdjakd(:
T A G G E D * flo baby flo and gabby twin(:;;florencia erin reiner (gabby<33)
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

template by RoyaLe of Caution 2.0

[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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love was something these two would have plenty of, even enough to give away to others and still have enough left over. they were probably the mushiest couple in all history but it wouldn't stop them. they would mush no matter what happened because the mush kept flo happy. when he was telling her things, she didn't have time to think of the negative and only time to think of the positive. the fact that she had the most handsome, most loving boyfriend, fiance, best friend, husband in the history of man kind.

the two young kids love would triumph over a lot of different things and they would become a happy couple. for the most part. florencia erin garner wouldn't always be happy because it was just so hard, but she would try her hardest to be happy and raise a child. she would care deeply for her beautiful baby girl, her lovely husband and the kids she worked with as a counselor. the girl would just love everyone she came in contact with, because she usually did. but some people in her life, she would dislike with a horrible passion. she wouldn't know how to take some and she would have to learn to calmly ignore them.

the fact that he found her blushes really cute would always just make the girl blush more because she couldn't help it. she would just love him so much and feel so happy every time he complimented her, that she couldn't help but blush. he would make her so happy, the happiest that she had ever been in all her life and she would be forever thankful to have him in her life. even if she didn't believe she deserved him, sooner or later she'll just give up with the fighting and just embrace him and his love. it was his choice and he choose her and she was grateful.

of course when the danced a little she couldn't keep from giggling and blushed when he dipped her. it was an amazing thing to do and just plain fun. she was just too happy and too excited for her own liking. she was glad that he choose her, even if she felt bad sometimes for taking him from others who could deserve his love. but she would be selfish. she would do it this once with mason. she would take him from others because she wanted him to be hers. she wanted to love him and hold him and just be happy. was that too much to ask? yeah it probably was but she'll get over it because he wouldn't let her push him away. when he said it was his question, she to his hand and began to walk and listen to his question. he said it was for a very selfish reason and she giggled. oh was he going to take her on a date? oh that would be the best thing.

the girl had many thoughts going through her head but just a date with food and love would be enough for her. she didn't want anything fancy. just love, food and bendy straws. she bit her lip, "i don't the perfect date would be me and you eating food and sipping coke from a bendy straw." she looked up at him from her eyelashes and looked away. she was afraid he'd laugh at her and think she was insane. what girl didn't want lavish things? not flo. she was happy with simple because simple was always better. too much would make her feel bad. make her feel like she was being a gold digger or something. simple was just what the girl needed.

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words: six hundred and thirty-one
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: <.< this sucks D:
music: who says by selena gomez

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[mason alexander garner]

Dec 16, 2011 10:04:16 GMT -5 mason alexander garner said:

the mush comments would only be ignored by mason, because he found someone to love and well why should he hide his comments and compliments. everyone else in his opinion could fuss all they wanted he was entitled to be selfish because he discovered something others could only long for. he found flo and his love for her would grow to be infinite and he wasn’t shy about how he felt. he had nothing to hold back and no reason to do so? their love would grow to be further intense in the future and people would either, embrace it, accept it, or have to deal with the fact they weren’t going to change ever. he liked it that way.

mason alexander, was not that happy of a soul. now he was happy! now that he met a girl. sure, it had not been that long sense he had currently met her, but the now was great! sure, he had met up with her now crying, but she was pretty to him either way. he started off kind of bitterly writing in the hallway, but his day turned around when she came around holding her in his arms. now they were walking and talking and learning about one another which was a great thing! he of course wanted to know everything about her already, but he’d pace himself and take it day by day because each day brought on a new wonder.


luck? yeah, he currently believed in it though his nerves were still challenging him. he had never been good enough in the past for a relationship beyond being someone’s sexual buddy. not even a female. sure, he’d make out with few, but he’d never bed him. that was for the better though, because one day he’d give himself to her, but there was no rush for that. first, they’d need to get together and right now in this point in time they were two teens playing twenty-one questions and enjoying each other’s company whether answers were positive or negative.


the blush and the giggle he got from dipping her was sweet and brought a smile to his lips. he would do fun things like this from time to time in the future, because he’d admire having her happy? his hand was in hers upon the question. yeah, it was a very selfish reason/question indeed, but he thought it would be cute and well he couldn’t wait for the answer so he knew what she kind of looked for in a good time? then he’d know how to show it!


he swung their hands as they walked and just waited for her reply feeling butterflies arise. he smiled at her reply. ”sounds like a very lovely date” he replied looking up at her. ”I’ll ponder over it and have it all nice and ready for you...us soon enough promise” he said leaning over and kissing her cheek. they reached the kitchen and he opened the door for her, because he was a gentleman. simple and easy was good, but he wanted to make it memorable and he would come up with something and well with the help of nola and her best friend summer he would get it done and it would be great! mason could very well do simple but he did not just want to do that. it wasn’t in him with such a lovely girl such as florencia.

W O R D S * one thousand one thirteen ;;t
T H O U G H T S * awww
;;uh uh sucky :S
M U S I C *silence ;;dsakfdjakd(:
T A G G E D * whofor ;;florencia erin reiner (gabby<33)
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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mason alexander garner and florencia erin reiner were two happy souls who were just lucky to have found one another or both would have lived their lives here in hawthorne lonely and sad. she was already falling deeply and madly in love with him. she couldn't help it because he was everything she could ever possibly wish for in a boy.

she was so happy right now and it was a miracle because she never thought she could feel happy around anyone before because she just wasn't used to it. florencia erin was just not a happy person and she hasn't been for some time now. the last time she could remember being truly happy was when she was younger and even at school. those were the times she didn't feel like an outcast because she had a loving mother and friends who kept her sane. now? she kind of pushed everyone away to the point where she wanted to die because they all deserved a better friend then her.

now she was in a school for the insane and not even that happy, except in her room with her friends or around mason. she didn't make many friends because she didn't get out much. there really was only mason, summer, zofia, hope and she was kind of friends with jacobi but she hadn't talked to many but summer and zo and that was only because they were her best friends and her roommates. she didn't get out enough to talk to cobi and hope though sometimes she wished she had the chance. maybe with the more friends the happier she could become but she didn't want that. soon christian drew carver would be her best friend. cc and summer and zo. they were the best people that the lovely flo could ask for in friends. and mason would be her greatest friend of all time.

honestly she didn't care what they were doing on the date as long as she was with mason, that was really all that mattered. anything he did for her would be perfect because he was the love of her life and she'd just be happy as can be just being with him. she kind of bit on her lip and giggled at him as they made it to the kitchen. she walked in and smiled at him before thinking up a question. "whats your idea of the perfect girl?" yeah she was curious, mostly because she wanted to see if that girl was her. if it wasn't she could just tell him and stop this thing before it grew into something that would only seem to hurt the both of them in the end.

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tags: janet with mason
notes: not much
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[mason alexander garner]

admitting you had a problem and checking yourself into a school like this was no fun. well asking to be checked in to a school like this was the hardest thing mason alexander would have to do...well one of them. especially because he had left his mother and sister with basically no male figure. it was a broken family already and he made it more broken, but mason was lost and he couldn’t help but kind of want to die because of all the events that had happened. therapy was so weak compared...to this place and well honestly the thing that was helping the most was florencia, even though it was too early to tell still, but her being a friend and a love interest as of right now was just more then enough to give him a positive push. plus he got some interesting help from the therapist here. natasha always had positive information to give him and he liked the way she listened opposed to his other shrink who kind of just tried to diagnose him to get paid and get it over with. some people did it for the money some people did it because they had heart. in the future...flo would be the woman with the heart. not that she didn’t have one now, but just the type of person to listen and want to help much like she did or would come to do throughout high school. she could believe she was selfish in life as much as she wanted, but he’d be the one person to know she was totally selfless! that heart of hers he’d cherish, but he would love to share it with others that needed it as well. it was almost as if he was the selfish one hogging her up for himself, but sharing it all the same. except with her roommates in the future, because he’d feel lost not having her about. he was younger than her, but he would want to challenge himself and get his ass out of high school quicker just to say with her forever and ever. again oh so selfish, but could anyone blame him?

the feeling in the air right now wasn’t mixed at all it was very clear that today was going to be a good day learning about one another having fun and cute moments. smiles would be a common emotion and maybe even tears of the past making one sad or happy tears because the two were just really hitting it off and enjoying one another. most guys didn’t admit to crying or even want to cry in front of an attractive girl like her, but mason would be okay with doing it in front of florencia, because he’d want to show most emotion to get her to know him...all of him! the two showing their true colors would work well for both of them. they’d love one another no matter what. her pushing and his mushing would just work awesome!


there would be downfalls kind of shielding her in the future from negativity. he’d suck her into a world where it was his room cc and her. he wouldn’t want to keep her from people so much so she didn’t have friends it was just he’d want to keep her from situations where she would be sad and inflict pain on herself. well once her learned that she did in fact hurt herself or get sick. he’d want her to be healthy and would help her to stay that way! the best relationships worked first and for most though with being best friends with your other. mason would find her to be the most amazing friend of all. they just honestly fit perfectly together and talking or not they would enjoy one another and that was the most fun of it all and amazing.


the kitchen was empty and well it was just the two of them and he had no complaints about that. then she asked him how he would define a perfect girl. ”well, every definition of perfect is completely different so perfect is hard to define, but sense your asking what my idea of a perfect girl is...the more clear the idea becomes because before this i wasn't able to define it..” of course he was saying that because he wanted to just say she’d be his perfect girl. everyone had flaws, everyone had insecurities, and everyone was beautiful in their own way. she was beautiful to him and the more he got to know her the more he likes. ”what is your idea of the perfect guy?” he asked twisting the question around without hesitation just out of curiosity. his answer was honest he didn’t just say that because it was something she would enjoy hearing...it was his perfect answer.

W O R D S * eight oh threeeeeee ;;t
T H O U G H T S * awww
;;mason loves flo(:
M U S I C *you shook me by acdc ;;dsakfdjakd(:
T A G G E D * flo baby flo and gabby twin(:;;florencia erin reiner (gabby<33)
W E A R I N G * clothes ;;clothes!
C R E D I T S * bruno mars' lazy song ;;

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[florencia erin reiner]

who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?,

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florencia erin reiner didn't want to admit she had a problem, she didn't want to worry her father or anyone. she didn't want to add stress onto already stressful situations. the fact that she was alive was obviously stressful enough for her family and she didn't want to add on with her bulimia and cutting. but they found her, twice now. she couldn't keep it a secret and then they didn't even try to deal with it any other way. they just shipped her off to some fucked up school for the fucked up. she didn't like it here, it sucked and she wished that she could just go back in time and not begin to cut, not begin to puke. but then she would still be in that house with her fucked up family and not here. not here where she had friends and people who cared for her. she loved everyone here, she did but it was too much sometimes. everyone knowing you had a problem and you weren't perfect wasn't something she wanted. she tried so hard to be the perfect girl for everyone, she did her homework, she listened when told to do something, everything about her was perfect. except her insides. she was so fucked up on the insides and she kept it from people so well. she always helped those who needed it because it was the right thing to do, they asked her for help so she helped. why wouldn't she? why turn them down and watch them go on being sad? but she did it for selfish reasons. right? thats what she told herself every day, that she was being selfish by helping people. even if it was far from a selfish thing to do.

today was a good day so far, she was happy to just have someone to talk to. she told him that she was a horrible person, yet here he was. she cried, yet here he was. he didn't push her away or turn his back on her like most people would. he was sweet and cared about someone he hardly knew. it was nice and she liked it. she liked him. it was a sweet and good day today and she didn't think it could go sour. unless her moods began to change. they were so rapid she didn't know it was happening until she was sad again. small things could make poor florencia sad and angry but she tried not to let it happen. she tried to keep everything bottled up because it was selfish to let it out. it was selfish to bother someone else with your feelings but she could never keep the sadness from her eyes or her voice no matter what she tried to do. tears would flow down her face.

flo wouldn't mind him being protective and keeping her to himself because it was a nice change of pace. she never had anyone care that much about her that they would want to watch her and make sure she was okay. there was no crazy thoughts about that he was doing it because he was controlling because she knew otherwise. she knew he just cared and didn't want jimmy to hurt her again, or for her to go puke up her food or to go cut herself because of her sadness. she just couldn't help those things though. she trusted too easily and jimmy said he was bad, kind of. but she didn't care, she went and got hurt anyway. as for the cutting and the puking. she just felt so fat and so gross that she wanted to be skinny. for mason. for herself. for her family. why was it so hard? to be pretty like everyone else. as for the cutting, she just needed it. it was a horrible feeling, all her emotions bubbling up and the things she kept inside. they just threatened to come out if she didn't let them out someway.

she was glad the kitchen was empty because she didn't want anyone to see her stuff her mouth with food. mason had already seen it and yet here he was. still with her, not worrying about watching her pig out and look like some fat cow. however she was worried he'd get disgusted but she was too hungry to think about it right now. she listened to him speak and smiled brightly at him, he was so nice. it was just amazing. he said that there was no perfect and she sighed when he asked her the same thing. "well..um..someone sweet and who doesn't care what i look like or that i like to eat. someone who can just love me for me and not want me to change and be something else. someone i can relax around and not have to smile and be happy to keep him happy." she wasn't going to lie to mason because he didn't lie to her, or well she didn't think he did. so she let the truth be known.

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who says your not pretty,

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words: eight hundred and forty-four
outfit: here
tags: janet with mason
notes: not much
music: who says by selena gomez

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