trainwreck [cc]

[rose mary berlin]

rose mary berlin felt like a complete devil and menace to this place. she should be back down in a home or some sort of ward that was on watch twenty-four seven, but the fourteen year old could not do that! she couldn't do that to christian now. her alter ego person...persona hurt him greatly and hurt herself, and now she was pregnant about three months along now and her little tummy was expanding and she was craving to get up and walk around and eat stuff that wasn't exactly healthy! her days were spent most often time doing her school work verbally and being tested and sleeping. mary longed for a normal life, but her daddy made her a sick person a sick twisted being and she didn't deserve to have a baby. she wouldn't be able to touch it ever or sing to it holding it...yeah that'd be off limits too.

the girl was too young to be having this baby and have had sex and she felt so dirty, but cc was a nice person and who better to lose your virginity to then a nice person even if it wasn't something you really wanted with your life. she wanted to reach and touch her stomach and just not turn into that evil thing people had become. she heard the door being unlocked and she kind of moved a bit to look comfy, but she really wasn't but what choice did she have. it wasn't her life at stake anymore it was the little baby's inside of her. that would be rayne's and cc's baby and well she wouldn't expect them to want the little thing to want to see her because she was a monster.

they beeped in and the door opened. mary couldn't help but smile waiting to see the person coming in. it was very little socializing in here! even if it was a security guard or a doctor or the caf person here to bring her food mary enjoyed seeing different people! "hello?" she piped up sweetly yet shy. she felt so weird laying strapped down, because she wasn't the bad person and sometimes it made her cry, but right now she was too happy to cry she was happy she had a visitor even if it was because it was their job to be her.

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[christian drew carver]

christian loved mary because she was so sweet and he knew she wouldn't hurt a fly. of course he was scared for a little while because there was rose and well at first he figured they were twins so it was okay. but then, he found out that wasn't true. that rose was inside mary and that just made his head hurt with confusion. but that was okay because rayne explained it and well now they were having a baby. he was excited and couldnt' wait for the baby. he was so happy as he sat in his room he was currently only sharing with one garner. well flo was just an almost garner but to him they seemed like they were already married in the heart and in their minds! they were cute and it was like god made them for each other. just like god made him for rayne and vice versa. he was happy and rayne was sad but cc made rayne happy and rayne made him even more happy.

soon a baby would make them both happy and he was sitting their thinking about baby things so he stood up and decided to go see mary! he wanted to get her opinion on cribs! so he gathered the different crib pictures up off of his bed and stood up before sliding his shoes on, he practically ran towards the isolation rooms! he hadn't ever been there because he never did anything bad really. he followed all the rules, of course he skipped class but that was usually accidents, or after rose and then again after rayne broke up with him. but mason was reminding him about school and so he hadn't missed any days so far. that was progress in the boys mind, so he couldn't wait to see mary and his baby in her tummy.

christian carver would let the baby talk to her mom and would tell her all about her mommy. he wouldn't' want to hurt mary or keep the child from knowing her because she didn't do anything wrong and God was always forgiving but there was nothing to forgive mary for. why? because she wasn't the one who did the bad things. it was the one thing c knew for sure! he smiled at the security and smiled, t"i want to see mary if thats okay..she's carrying my baby," he said happily. there was no sense of sadness, fear or regret in the tall boys voice just plain happiness.

they took him to her door and beeped him in and he walked in happily! he didn't even really register she was tied up exactly, or well he didn't make it evident in his words. he didn't want to shwo her that he was sad for her because he understood. he knew what she was doing and why she was doing it. to protect their's and rayne's baby. he didn't see the child as just his and rayne's. it was his, rayne's and mary's and that was how it will always be.t "hi mary!" he waved happily and with the biggest grin on his face. t"how are you?"

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: five hundred and twenty seven
tnotes: nothin<3
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

mary berlin, tried to keep christian away from her for his own safety, because she liked him too and she knew rose would use that against him. it wasn’t his fault entirely it was hers, but she had never invited im over purely because he didn’t understand she was sure and if he said the wrong thing it put him at danger. now here she was three months pregnant and in isolation, because rose decided to put her life at stake and christians. surely the boy didn’t see it that way she wasn’t sure really how he saw it or why he even liked her still, but it made her feel great that he did. though she did have her moments where she just wanted to like reach out and hug him for being such a nice person and not hating her. rayne as well because he explained everything to cc and they were going to keep the baby and keep it safe. mary was really scared to have it though...she had read once that young mothers can die from child birth. why? because well mary wasn’t fully developed yet. though abortion was not an option. mary didn’t believe in taking lives...that was rose.

mary wished she could pick stuff out and be a part of it all but it was really hard to look at stuff without well she could but if it said the wroong thing then the girl would change into rose. she wished rose was dead! then she could help and well she was helping by carrying? well not really. she looked down at her wrist and kind of moved her hand about rolling it and then did the same with the other and giggled. it was silly to do that, but that was her movement and if she didn’t move them she felt like they were going to give out or something. like her joints would stop...well she did walk sometimes, but she made sure there was a guard around her when that happened. it was silly and she felt like she was soooo demanding doing that, but it was absolutely necessary in her opinion.

isolation wasn’t normally well volunteered and well it wasn’t pry normal for her to see cc or rayne but she wanted to and well she’d be happy at anytime if they came because they could look at her tummy. she was wearing tights under the gown too so they could see the actual baby grow. the doctors lifted it up well the gown sometimes to see the progress. it was kind of weird because she was such a modest girl. then again one pregnant wasn’t exactly modest. mary was still so confused about sex and rose didn’t really know what it was but she had it and it hurt but it felt good all the same to her. mary knew it meant she wasn’t a virgin anymore, but she somewhat wished she was, because she wanted the love story and the marriage and...it was stupid she’d never get those things cause of rose!

the figure she saw emerge was one she thought of often. not in a gross way, but he was so happy and she got to talk to him freely now for the most part. she couldn’t hurt him and it made her smile even wider at his chipper hi. ”hello cc” she said almost just as happy but it was hard to match because he was a excessively happy person. it made her feel great because the little girl or boy inside of her would be happy too.”I am well thank you” she said being the proper little soul she was. she was really like that and liked proper dresses and etiquette and stuff, but not many people got to see that. ”How are you doing CC?” she asked her smile growing wider as she imagined she gave him a hug, because she couldn’t and her imagination would have to do for now. after all she was merely fourteen and the imagination could still climb strong at that age.

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[christian drew carver]

christian drew carver never understood when people didn't want to spend time with him or were trying to keep him. subtle hints and way too obvious hints went straight over his head and he never thought about it more. they just confused him! if they tried to avoid him, he thought they were busy! so what c would do was surprise them with board games and chocolate milk and cookies! because that made everyone smile and everyone needed a break and some fun! soo he never understood mary was trying to protect him until it was too late! but she said her name was rose anyway..he met rose not mary and then she said they were twins! and he figured that means she was nice like mary, she seemed nice. but no..she wasn't nice. she hurt him and made him sad and he didn't like rose anymore. though mary! heh still liked her! because she was nice and she was carrying a baby! and it was his baby and it made him giddy inside, even if the way the baby was conceived was horrible, he couldn't blame the baby and if she killed the baby. that'd be sad and it'd make him cry! but here was mary and his baby was inside her and it was interesting, a bit confusing, bu tinteresting.

yeah c had no clue where babies came from! okay no he knew that you hd to have sex..like him and rose did..and that..it happened. but he didn't understand the medical things behind it. there were sperm and ovaries and things and tubes and stuff that just made his head spin because it was too much! way too much for poor c to understand and comprehend. but he hoped mary would be okay because he heard somewhere that it hurt o have a baby! he didn't want to hurt mary because it was his baby and she didn't deserved to get hurt!

the pictures c had with him didn't have any words! rayne told him that it wouldn't be smart, so they were just the pictures of the cribs and he wanted mary to see them and help him. he liked all the cribs and he needed help and rayne had helped him narrow it down to three and now maybe mary could help! he didn't want to leave her out of the baby planning because it was her baby too! there was a round baby crib, a convertible one and another pretty one he fell in love with! it was so hard to choose because everything was so pretty and it made him want to jump up and down with excitement!

c understood why mary went to isolation or kind of. cause rose was a meanie and she didn't want rose hurting him or the baby. their baby! so instead mary was strapped down and it was so because he wanted to hug her but he couldn't so he just stood there and smiled really happily! because there was mary and his baby! heh didn't know how close he was allowed to get but she was tied up and he wasn't really thinking about it anyway! if he got in trouble then well, he would get in trouble,

he giggled and walked up to her with the three pictures and smiled, ."i'm glad your well! how's the baby!?" he was so excited for the baby that it wasn'te ven funny! he wanted to hold one and it was exciting. but sometimes he felt like he wouldn't be able to handle it! rayne was so sad sometimes and he was so childish. was that a good way to raise a baby! he frowned and cried when he thought about that but he could get rayne to be happy and he can try to be less childish. right? he could be..normal? and raise a baby!? yes..he wasn't going to give up the baby! it was his and mary's and rayne's baby!

."oh me!? i'm good! i just need help! i had five cribs and rayne helped me down to three but now i still dont' know which one to choose!" he was giddy and giggly and he showed her the first crib, then the second and then the third.. "which do you like mary? i like all of them and so does rayne and it's your baby too so you have to help with stuff!" he giggled and began to bounce on the heels of his feet like a happy, bouncy, bubbly little kid.

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: seven hundred and sixty-two
tnotes: nothin<3
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

honestly, cc would be mary’s bestest friend and she’d go and hang out with him every given day if she had that option. he was such a sweetheart! they could go and plant flowers together and play silly child like games that she had to avoid, because they could do some real harm with her other personality and not be child like games but more like a bloody massacre. the girl never got that option being that she was the only child and her father ruined her. she was ill very much ill. well not her but rose. when she grew old enough she somehow had to get her name legally changed from rose to mary, but that would be a difficult task unless she could send in paperwork and send a lawyer on her behalf, because while rose was a part of her she wanted her unleashed and completely gone! that was a story for a different day though. little miss mary was laying there kind of looking over her little tummy and while she didn’t approve she was kind of...well excited in a weird way. a baby at fourteen was frowned upon, but she had never managed to gain weight like so, but she couldn’t think too much about the little boy or girl because then trouble would arrise it was really hard but she laid back and shut her yes and thought about school work, because well it got her mind off things. she had a history quiz tomorrow well not history geography it was kind of simple really it was about the fifty states and she was getting quizzed on some of the western area and their capitals. ”Sacramento, Salem, Portland...” she said the first obvious three states first...”Jacksonville” and she giggled because it wasn’t near to what she was going to be tested on. Sure it was silly, but it was keeping bad thoughts out of her little head. She decided to move on to thinking about dinner oddly. Why, because the baby constantly made her pretty hungry!

Words and pictures would be bad, because then Rose would think of riddles well Mary would and then Rose would be there and not Mary, so it was a good thing Rayne was there to tell CC that she couldn’t see the words. It was cute though that CC was even bringing pictures of cribs to Mary, because she didn’t feel like she could be the mama and that this was kind of she heard the term surrogate... it was like that! The hardest thing was going to have a baby and then have to sign away custody of it, but she was only fourteen and highly dangerous and she’d pry even end up leaving soon after maybe back to the psycho loony bin home.

The bright boy before her beaming in a sense made Mary so happy and excited and not thinking about their baby was no impossible just as long as her mind didn’t drift. She wanted to hug him but it was hard so she just kind of sat still smiling. He said she was happy she was alright and well had this never happened Mary would kind of shelter herself still and not get a chance for someone to outright ask that question minus adults and such that had to work with her. ”The baby is good he or she is growing” she said it was obvious. She wasn’t sure they had seen the pictures of her last check up. ”um um on that table over there” she said pointing towards it. ”There’s a little picture I just got it like a day or so agohe/she was tiny yet growing, and (it says its twelve weeks so i hope its right) cute very cute in Mary’s opinion not like she could see or tell what it was yet or how it looked. ”You should take it so Rayne can see too” she said biting her lip. She liked looking at it though because it made her happy, but she wasn’t trying to keep the picture away from CC and Rayne, because it was their baby and they were nice enough to include her...

When he said something about cribs she smiled. He didn’t have to ask her about that its not like she was going to be able to see the crib or she wasn’t going to be able to see the crib or as what she’d come to find would be Raylyn as a baby. Maybe, she’d get pictures though! ”Oh?” she said and looked over at all three. ”Well, the third one looks like it could be for either or a boy or girl, but maybe, maybe we wait until the gender comes in?” she said and smiled. ”Unless you don’t want to know and want it to be a surprise, but if its a girl the second one is really pretty..” they looked expensive too, but it wasn’t like she was involved in that sense, because she was fourteen with no family...and no income or funds. Then he said it was her baby too and she wanted to cry, but she smiled happily. ”Which one is your favorite though?” she asked wanting to know what one was his favorite, favorite.


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STATUS! complete
TAGS! ilikeyou christian drew carver<3
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OUTFIT! wearing a hospital like gown and tights<_<
CREDITS! Template Byarro @ Caution!
LYRICS! Colorado Sunrise by 3OH!3

[christian drew carver]

christian thought mary as one of his bestest friend because she gardens and he gardens and that was why she went to the room. cause rosey said there was a flower and he wanted to see because he loved plants and then he was hurt and it was sad but now it was all okay! he understood and mary was trying to protect people and he thought that was sweet and that just made him love her twenty times more! rayne helped him with all this and with comprehending everything that was going on because c always got confused and this was a confusing topic. especially for the boy who couldn't concentrate very long but he tried! he really did try. but it was so hard and he had to think a lot to figure it out and he didn't know why she ws saying those words and he bit his lip and giggled, because it was funny. even if he didn't get it but he bounced on his toes and sighed, "why are you doing that silly mary?"

c was always happy to have his rayne because his rayne helped him with everything. if he didn't help, then c wouldn't know how to handle this situation and with out rayne he'd be lonely and scared and confused. plus he woudl have made evil rosey come out with the words because he wouldn't have thought of it! but now everything was okay and he was happy and he had mary and rayne and the new baby! this place for c was amazing because he had friends and people who loved him and his nana and granddad visit all the time to see him and rayne because they are the sweetest. life was good for c now! though christian didn't even know what a surrogate was or what the word meant, he didn't see it like that. it was more a, mary and c having a baby and c having custody but mary still being a mommy. because she would make a good mommy and he knew if the baby was a girl, she'd need a mommy! everyone needed a mommy to be happy.

he wanted to touch the belly because there was a baby inside it and he knew summer's belly and he would touch it and now he wanted to touch mary's. but that would be weird? he didn't know but he nodded, "yay for growing babies. does the baby kick yet?" he wondered when they would know if it was a girl baby or a boy baby and when they did then he can pick the names! there were a lot of names to choose from and so far he liked the names raylyn and christopher. so he'd be like his daddy or her mommy either way or that's how he saw it? ray was mary with no m and the letters all missed up. while christopher had chris like christian did. plus raylyn was also like rayne! ray rya and so no matter what. the names when with the parents and he thought it was cute!

then she said there was a picture and he skipped over to it and giggled when he saw it. he didn't understand what was there but he could make out a little and he would show rayne because he was sure rayne would love to see little baby ray or chris. "oh mary want to hear the names? i haven't told rayne yet but you should tell me if you like them and then rayne can tell me the names he likes then we can all agree." he giggled and held the picture close because it was exciting. "i'll bring this back when rayne see's it and maybe we can get a copy? for ourselves. do they do that mary?"

christian would send mary pictures galore of raylyn and when videos of her first walks and then call her to let raylyn tell her her first word. which would be mama because c would talk about mary and show pictures to little ray. they would make an amazing family and they would be happy. that was all that was important really. "i like that one and the first one has a tiny siderail for when the babie's a toddler and then it can be a big kids bed too. and plus it has a changer and the drawers and comes in black and brown!" he giggled because he liked all the beds and this was hard.

oh waiting! why didn't he think about waiting? silly christian, he was in such a hurry to have the baby he forgot he had to wait! so it was like a fun time and he giggled and jumped up and down and he was happy and excited and nervous! "oh right! okay when do we find that out? cause i'm excited." he giggled and bit his lip, "mary can i touch the baby or?" he blushed because he didn't know if she liked people touching her tummy because he'd htink it was weird if he was mary and he didn't want to make her uncomfy or anything.

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: eight hundred and sixty-two
tnotes: nothin<3
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

the fact that he was in the room when she did that or that he heard her made her bite her lip nervously, because when he asked it took a lot for her to keep doing it. ”Kentucky is a nice state a lot of hill billy’s but i heard it was nice or something like that...I can’t really say why I’m doing this CC..I guess but it has something to do with my quiz” she said sighing and she felt like she was still herself so she laid back with ease. ”I know I’m silly” she said licking her lips. ”Sometimes I have to be” was all she could say and hope that CC understood, but if he didn’t she’d explain, but the girl would disappear and well pry for the remainder of his visit and it wouldn’t be pretty and she was trying to protect him from that again. Geography in and of itself is really silly, but it works...isn’t it funny how we’re from different states...and we’re all here” she said rambling trying to keep herself talking to think of the why’s and such. mary almost wanted to cry sometimes, because it was so scary the demon inside her coming out...well she did, but not in public she never had to. she looked at him bouncing and giggled. ”you’re so funny cc” she wanted to say cute, but she didn’t want him to take that the wrong way.

mary was kind of well she kind of wanted rayne to be here too, but not because she didn’t like christian and his giddy self it was just hard to kind of go around things. it was always somewhere in her head and she managed it a little bit, but it hurt sometimes and gave her a big headache, but the boy in front of her was so sweet. it was why it had been so effective in the first place. people like abi, cassie, cc, jackson, and isabelle kind of didn’t stand a chance because they couldn’t bite their tongue quick enough sometimes and she didn’t want them to have to do that, but unfortunately it all came down to words... mary loved cc for the person that he was though, because he was giving her a part of this baby’s life and she really thought that was completely sweet of him, because it was after all her body that reaped him even if it wasn’t her head at the time and he was still giving her a damn chance. that was really great of him...even if she wouldn’t see raylyn in the sense of being able to hug her and hold her until she was nearly an adult.

his comment made her smile. ”yeah, he or she is going to be beautiful i am sure” she said keeping a positive outlook on it even though it was kind of a sad story how little raylyn was made. she didn’t want the girl to harbor that with her or well if it had been a boy she wouldn’t want him to take that with him either it wouldn’t be right. ”the doctor said the baby can start kicking as early as thirteen weeks old or between then and about twenty-four weeks old” she said knowing her stats was fun. she was studying babies in health right not to be better prepared. ”right now he or she is twelve weeks so...not yet” she said not trying to confuse him but explain it to him so he knew when to expect the little booger to start kicking and what not..well not booger, but the little joy? yeah, it was a joy even if the way it happened at the time it was happening wasn’t exactly common.

the boy made her giggle because he was so big, but childlike and skipping and then he saw it and giggled and it was just giggly up in isolation which was kind of new. it ended with her smiling and he asked her if she wanted to hear the names. ”yeah, that would be really great CC” she wanted to hear what the future little carver was going to be named and he had two she assumed because two sexes and one for each and she couldn’t wait to find out either then she could kind of start talking...maybe getting him or her used to the name? ”i can ask the lady that comes in here” she said with a nod. ”if not you can keep it...” she said biting her lip that’d make her sad, but she’d hide it, because after all he’d be raising it and what not why shouldn’t he have the pictures?

the videos would make mary really happy, but they’d pry bring out her other half, because what’d you do with a baby you said baby like things. however she’d cherish them, because they shared the same brain after all. it was how she knew to go after cc kind of, because mary striked up a little crush nothing big and he was a good friend. ”wow, that has to be pretty expensive no, but really really worth it because you have everything in one” she said thinking about that. ”maybe thats the better one, because it has a lot of stuff you can use for a long time” she said thinking the first one sounded legit.

though he did still have to wait for a confirmation on the sex, because if he had a really girly crib and they had a boy that’d be kind of silly! no really silly and pry pretty bad and confusing. ”well, i think we can find out soon, but the more positive ones are like a few more months in i think?” she said not really knowing for sure. ”you should come for the next appointment so you can see it moving a little bit if it does or just see it on the screen...i’ll have someone come find you..you and rayne” she said and then he asked her if he could touch her belly and he blushed did he feel awkward. ”yeah you can you just got to pull my little gown up a little but don’t worry i have tights on” she said so it wouldn’t be weird and gross. ”unless you just feel more comfortable touching it like it is you can do that too”

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[christian drew carver]

christian never held grudges, it required too much energy to do that! yeah he kind of had enough energy to hold a million grudges and still have some left. yeah he was one energetic boy or man? he was eighteen so man would probably be a better way to describe him, yet his attitude screamed young child. he didn't really care what people thought of him, because he was just happy and he liked it that way! so the fact that mary couldn't tell him something didn't register as strange at all, it was just something and he nodded, unsure of why she was still doing it but it was okay. he kind of giggled when she mentioned the whole thing about states, "yeah its funny!" though his friends came from the same states as he did! and he had val she was from north dakota and he was born there but he was from california with carson, jinxx, aaron, sammie, and james! that was his home and here! here was his home because he had rayne and mary and babies! yeah the boy was excited for the baby.

the boy never really got the fact that it was words, yeah he comprehended he had to bring her only pictures. that much he knew. because that's what his rayne said. but he didn't transfer that over to the fact that his words were things that could trigger the mean girl rose from coming out. he would feel bad for making the mean lady take over rose's body but he'd be hurt and upset too! the mean lady hurt him and yeah he was going to get a beautiful baby girl out of it but his virginity was stolen from him! he was supposed to be good and be a virgin until after he was married so he didn't sin. but he told rayne that it wasn't sinning if you were forced, though he kind of felt like he had sinned. when rayne told him the same words he used, it made him feel better. that and the fact that mary didn't hate him! plus the baby. all those things made the boy happy and he and flo had spazzed together and talked about weddings and baby things. she was a good friend and a good help when he needed it.

"yeah cause your really pretty so i hope he or she looks like you," he said with a big smile! c was always putting a positive outlook on anything in life, even if it was something horrible like a rape baby. not that the rape baby was horrible or anything! it wasn't the babies fault! it was the rapists fault that he was raped! the baby had nothing to do with it! it was all meanie rose and he understood that and he would never blame mary or the child ever. no he'd love raylyn with all his heart and mary was a good friend and he already loved her! love was something c had a bunch of in his big heart. he listened and nodded, so that was one more week! he couldn't wait to feel the baby and it'd be funny and kind of silly! "oh that's not too long," he said all giddy and happy! "can you have them get me when he or she starts kicking? cause it'd be fun to feel!" yeah he wanted to feel the kicks and just be happy and giddy with mary and rayne and the baby!

she wanted to hear the names! he felt really giddy and excited already and kind of bounced on the balls of his feet. "If its a girl it'd be raylyn carver because ray is like the beginning of rayne and if you move the r, a and y around and change the n to m and put it in front and make the l and y go bye bye you have mary. and if tis a boy christopher because chirs is like christian!" he didn't have middle names but mary and rayne can pick those! he wanted them to be apart of it too because rayne would be her other daddy and mary was her mommy! he was giddy when she said she'd ask the lady but then he frowned and shook his head. "no silly mary this is your picture and i'll bring it back after i show rayne!" though eh didn't understand why they couldn't make a copy of it for him! it was his baby too but either way he was fine! he didn't want to take mary's picture because it was her baby too.

"yeah i think it was three hundred and stuff but its a big bed and a little bed and a crib and everything! he or she could have it forever and if i get the black bed then it could be for a girl and a boy!" he was giddy and excited and everything was just such a happy moment! he hopped up and down and nodded, "yeah the first bed does sound like a good one!"

he didn't like waiting because waiting wasn't exactly c's specialty but he wouldn't want to confuse his baby! if the baby wanted to be gay or a boy or a girl when they were older, he wouldn't stop them. but he didn't want to confuse them when they were little! though if the boy baby wanted a barbie doll he'd buy them a barbie doll and if the girl baby wanted a skateboard he'd buy her one! he wasn't the father who told their child not do something because it wasn't right! there were no right and wrongs when it came to children play toys, they were just play toys! "rayne and me would like that," he said all giddy again! then she said he could touch her belly and he moved over to her and moved her gown up a little to touch the belly and giggled. "hi there little baby. i'm your daddy cc. you have two daddies but daddy rayne's not here right now. its just me and your mommy but its okay cause daddy rayne loves you and he'll come see you next time." talking to the belly wasn't at all awkward for c, he didn't really get awkward, because he didn't really notice when things weren't supposed to be that way. so he was just giggly. "i think he or she likes me," he said with a bright smile, "and you too."

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: one thousand and eighty eight
tnotes: holy fuck sakes xD
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

mary was happy he was still friends with her, so she had no room to complain that he wasn’t mad at her and she understood it was the kid in him that kind of saw things through and allowed him to still be friens with her. it was silly how she kept going on and on and then said it was weird how they all came from different states. technically speaking mary had lived in california for awhile and kind of forgot where she was originally from because she had been in a psychiatric ward because she was considered as a danger to herself and to society. he said it was funny though and nodded so she hoped he kind of understood and it made her smile. ”it is, but its good sometimes at the same time, because you make new friends from new places and friends are good i like that you and rayne are my friends.” she said being that they were the only people she could pry really ever consider a friend and that weren’t scared to be around her...even though she was somewhat scared to be around herself which as why she was strapped in because she was scared for the baby. he was really excited for the baby and she didn’t want a tragic ending.

the pictures were nice and she was glad he had brought them! at least she’d know what ray was going to be sleeping in or what she would be wearing and all the stuff when she was born. it was going to be great even if the girl didn’t know what the little girl was as of right now and if she didn’t get to see ray grow up. though once all of this played out no one was going to see the angry rose they were going to see the anger in mary come out and not be able to take it. well that was if they had camera’s in the isolation unit. it probably wouldn’t be good, because she would be heeling from being cut open and a baby improperly being removed from her, but she would want rose dead and would only home it would work. though she knew christian and rayne would be good parents for raylyn, but it would be even better if she got the chance to be with her daughter and be herself one that wasn’t tied to a bed living in fear.

mary blushed a little when he said that she was really pretty. that made her smile as well and look down. no guy had ever called her pretty even if he was gay it meant a lot to her...well her daddy had, but she hated that man and she adored cc.
”thanks” she said glancing up and biting her lip. it was just a really sweet moment and special to mary and it meant more than he could ever know to the fourteen year old girl. little raylyn would look like of the mix of the two, but naturally she’d have mary’s blonde hair and well it was supposed to be a mix and she would be a beautiful little girl in her opinion! she would never once ever look down upon the girl she was a gift even if it was a horrible thing that happened to get her. ray would always be her bright and shiney sunshine...and cc would was a great love to have in her life and rayne too he was really nice. it was just a week away and she was excited if it did happen in a week! ”yeah not long at all” she said happy about it. ”of course as long as someone is in here to hear me or they give me a button to press that doesn’t have them think its like something bad because i have one of those like in case i start having some health issue i can’t explain?” in other words bleeding and such for a miscarriage or something which she’d never wish for but it could happen. ”maybe, they’ll let you come stay the night in here if she or he starts to kick” because it wasn’t like she was dangerous she was strapped down, but he’d have to go out when she went potty and stuff, because she wasn’t tied then..she always felt bad for the guards, because they looked kind of frightened...she hated having that affect.

”whoa that’s a lot of money, but they could have it for a long time.” she said agreeing with the idea of it. ”maybe that’s the best idea’, but you could wait if you want too just to be sure in case you want a prince or princess like thing” she joked wondering if that was maybe an idea? it’d be like a little prince or a princess and adorable..

nine months was probably a long time for someone like cc to have to wait and kind of mary too, because she was kind of paranoid it was a long day laying here like this and she had a matter of months to still go, but little did she know it would only be a seven month term and the poor little baby would have to be on support for awhile, because they weren’t supposed to come out of the womb like that and who was even to tell if the little girl or boy would even be alive but a doctor after that. mary wasn’t a fan of having the baby at this age, but she by no means wanted it dead, because well she didn’t believe in killing human life that was rose! ”good i’d like it too” she said honestly, because the goo felt weird and she was looking at a baby she didn’t even really expect to be seeing much of really and it made her happy but sad at the same time, but seeing c as bright as he was always made her happier more than she would ever be sad! she watched as he talked to belly and she couldn’t help but smile widely at it, because it was just so cute. he was going to make such a cute daddy! ”i think he or she likes you too” she said back because she was just so happy that the baby was going to be in sweet arms like c’s and he seemed like a natural talking to the baby. she hoped the baby would like the too and hoped that was true. ”i hope so” she said chipperly.

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[christian drew carver]

christian knew that mary had a point and he couldn't argue with her logic at all. no, not when he actually got something. it would be stupid to argue and look dumb but even then, he thought he point was good and she made sense and it made sense. he was okay with this conversation, the confusing things were gone and he understood and as happy. that was important, not always but it was nice to understand for a change! especially for the boy who's brain didn't comprehend everything the way other people's brains did.

the boy was glad he got something right for a change and listened to his rayne! not that he ever didn't listen to rayne, sometimes he forgot but this he knew was important. so he made sticky notes on his lappy top with the important things he needed to remember, and soon he wouldn't need to notes, he'd just remember! words were bad, they made the bad rose come out and he didn't want her to come out so he listened to rayne! rayne was so smart and c was happy to be in love with such a smart person and he wanted to go and hug the crap out of his rayne and kiss him but that'll wait till later of course, when he went to go say hi after this. he would cuddle cause he liekd cuddles and kisses, as long as bad things didn't happen. like the night he ended up kind of proposing to rayne. it was cute cause he just told rayne that they would be married in a nice state that didn't judge people for what they were inside and well that was it. there was no ring, or cheesy things just love and happiness! that was all that mattered to c, rayne's happiness.

c thought mary was really pretty! and he knew his baby would be pretty because it would have a pretty mommy! not that c was attracted to mary, obviously, but he was allowed to think people were pretty. pretty was just a thought and she was pretty, so of course he would say so! he didn't know how to lie or anything and she was pretty! was there really a point in lying? nope..none that c could see. if anything, he shouldn't lie about that stuff or not tell people they were pretty. that would be mean. well except flo, he's noticed when he calls her pretty, she gets sad and he doesn't enjoy seeing his friends sad.

he clapped over and over when she said she would see if the doctors would get her a button or something. of course he was happy! why wouldn't he be happy? it was exciting news and it wouldn't be much longer before he could feel the baby kick! any parent would be excited by that news and he was giggling and wanting to hug her but it would probably be awkward sense she was laying down, so he just giggled and clapped. "i'd like that," he said with happy thoughts filling his head! he couldn't wait for the baby to be born but it was too early and he knew he had to wait cause it wasn't fully developed yet but it was just exciting!

c nodded when she said it was a lot, "my granddaddy and nana are going to help until we can get enough money and jobs and stuff." the prince or princess thing was sweet and made him giggle and nod. "thats a cute idea!" and sense mary wanted it, well he was going to give the baby something because mary was his or her mommy.

it was a lot, trying to wait when you couldn't stop thinking about the baby and when time kind of seemed distant and a weird thing. mostly because his head was always taking longer to process things so time seemed slower, though sometimes it seemed faster. depending on what he was doing really. if he was happy and distracted it went by really fast but if he was having a hard time with something it was slow. that was why he was distracting himself with baby things! and sitting here, he was so happy his brain was occupied so he was being kind of forgetful. so as he places his mouth near mary's tummy again he began to hum twinkle twinkle getting half way through before his mind register something, said by who knows anymore. 'don't sing nursery rhymes' why? he couldn't remember why but his brain was telling him to move, and so he did. he stepped back and finally remembered. it would trigger rose and he put his hand to his mouth, already kind of scared.

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: seven hundred and ninety-two
tnotes: holy fuck sakes xD
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

Feb 10, 2012 22:36:20 GMT -5 rose mary berlin said:

mary wasn’t trying to push on an argument she just kind of got uncozey for a moment and just began talking on and on about random stuff and then had a point and suddenly the girl kind of sighed with ease. she let herself relax, because stress wasn’t good for the baby, but there was a lot of stress being mary..she tried not to carry it on because she didn’t want to hurt anyone especially him or her, but at the same time she couldn’t help it on some occasions her mind just was in a battle and she was stressed.

mary was smiling over at him happily, because he was such a sweet soul and even though she wasn’t supposed to be pregnant and sex wasn’t permitted till marriage and he wasn’t straight...she was glad he was the daddy of this baby. there was so many complications when you really looked at it, but he was such and angel in her opinion and a sweet sweet person she couldn’t ask for a better person...or people to really just have this child. rayne and christian were going to be great parents, surely she felt bad for the whole situation because they were still so young and as was she, but it was such a relief to know that the child was going to be in such a lovely home. plus she heard his grandparents were sweet. she kind of feared to meet them, because of what her body had done even if it wasn’t her head, because they were extremely religious people and their core value’s they instilled in the boy were kind of gone and it was all her bodies fault, but she wouldn’t stress upon that now.

she tried to picture their child a million different ways, but she didn’t try picturing her or him growing up...not yet, because she hadn’t even had him or her...it would be interesting to see...surely they would be beautiful or handsome..christian was handsome...and well she just hoped none of her negative genes got carried over that this child was positive like cc and proper...well as proper as mary could be now that she was bearing a child. she couldn’t believe she was going to be a mother...and in all reality she couldn’t even think of her own which was sad, but she knew it’d be a wonderful experience something she never dreamed she would be able to ever have.

the clapping was cute and brought a wider smile to her face. she wondered if it hurt when the baby would kick she had read sometimes it does and sometimes it is unsettling, but the fact that another life was in her..despite already having the insignificant life of the evil half in here was very fascinating to the young blonde. ”good i’m glad” she said when he said he would like that. it would be fun and surely rayne and cc would both be trying to get the little one to kick and she didn’t mind, because it would just make her happy to see the site.

”i wish i could help you with that stuff” she admitted, because she felt like she was just kind of...well she was carrying it and young and irresponsible still, but this..she felt like she wanted to do so much more, but she couldn’t it was like being stuck, but she didn’t want to cry in front of him so she just bit her lips and smiled. ”tell them i said thank you” when he got the chance hopefully he would. ”im glad you like it” she said chipper now she had contributed a little bit.

then silence fell over and her eyes widened when he first began to hum, but all was lost...she tried so hard to hang on, but then you could see the smirk forming as he covered his mouth being scared. ”what’s wrong cc? didn’t miss me?” the voice asked as it shot him a glare looking down at her stomach. ”mary is so stupid she has me strapped into this chair...when i can end it all...you should have been smarter and not done this to me or mary...now not only am i locked away for at least five more months but so is she...” she said laying a guilt trip on him. ”do us all a favor and unlock my arms i promise to play nice” she said and laughed like a menace post that...rose play nice yeah right. she began to shake and move around on the bed trying to break free. ”this is pathetic...” she spat the words out shooting another glare at him. ”there will be blood and no baby i promise you...and maybe no mary...wouldn’t that be pleasant..i should kill them both and be done with it....it is after all my child not hers...i had sex with you not mary” she said and looked down at the stomach. ”hi my little babyy” she said evily talking to it.

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LYRICS! Colorado Sunrise by 3OH!3

[christian drew carver]

at first the boy was kind of afraid that God wouldn't love him anymore because he wasn't a virgin but his rayne made him feel better. he told him the same words that c once used, that it wasn't his fault so God wouldn't hate him. c should have known that already but his mind was so jumbled after that he didn't know what to do anymore. he kind of understood why rayne did the things he did, but they still made him sad but he understood and he hated that his rayne would feel that way and it made him even more sad inside. but he was okay no and gay or not he was loved mary with all his heart because she was just so sweat and she was having this baby even though she didn't need to because she didn't plan this either.

cc liked to picture a baby in his hands and singing and stuff but the baby changed all the time and he couldn't wait to have the baby in his arms for real. excitement. that was the thing that always filled the childish boy when he thought about the child and taking care of the child. he wanted to teach the baby how to garden like his nana taught him and he was happy to have such great people to help with the unborn baby! everyone was so excited and the baby would soon be a big ball of joy in so many peoples lifes and he just couldn't wait! waiting seemed to be impossible for him but he was managing as best he could and kept himself distracted with baby things! baby things made him less worried about his baby.

"i wish you could help top," he said and he did wish she could help but she can help later when the baby was born. he would let her see the baby or try to let her see the baby even though rose would kind of make it impossible and he got that cause his rayne told him and it was sad because he wouldn't want to not see the baby. "i can bring pictures of things and you can help me choose its swing sets and its other toys," he said with a smile, really wanting to make mary feel included because she deserved to be included.

c's grandparents really wanted to meet mary and him and rayne explained what had happened and they understood and the didn't hate the girl. if anything, they respected her and just as excited for the little one as he was. "they want to meet you! so you can tell them thank you." he smiled brightly and kissed her cheek before giggling and clapping his hands over and over again. he wanted mary to meet his nana and granddad because they were going to help with the baby and she needed to meet the people that were helping. it only made sense.

christian carver didn't want this lady here but rose was there and it was all his fault and he was so scared! it was taking so much to push away the thoughts of when this mean lady hurt him but it was hard. you would think that he would be scared of mary but that wasn't true. mary was nice and sweet and he liked her because she was going to make a good mommy to his baby but this mean rose was in the way and it was sad that mary couldn't be a momma because of her. he just shook his head at the poor girl and bit his lip. he didn't miss her..why would he miss this mean lady? he missed mary already though and he kind of backed away a bit more. before he was kind of scared of mary because he didn't know but rayne explained it because there was a willow and jay lady and one was mean to flo but one was nice and it was confusing but he just didn't argue. even if he didn't completely get it.

he didn't do this and he just kept shaking his head because it wasn't his fault. he didn't do this because he didn't mean to. it was mean rose..mean rose did it. she made this happen but it was okay because he'd love the baby and he loved mary and rayne and they would all be happy. yeah..happy. he wasn't going to let rose ruin that! he refused to let her ruin it but he did feel bad for poor mary to be locked like this and it made him sad but it wasn't his fault. it was her fault. "no its your fault. mary did it so you won't hurt the baby or anyone because marys nice but your really mean..and she doesn't want the baby hurt."

there was a feeling going through him when she threatened his baby. it was the same feeling that was coarcing his body when he had punched carson because he caused rayne to almost die! he didn't want no one dead and everyone was making everyone dead and his brain was hurting as he tried to push the anger down. the anger always made him feel horrible because he really wanted to like everyone, that was always important to him. then the evil way she talked to the baby was enough to make cc's head pop off.

"SHUT UP!!" his eyes were wide as he heard his voice and he put his hand back over his mouth but the anger was still too much. "she isn't your baby," he yelled because it wasn't her baby. "thats mary's body and her baby and my baby not your baby! you wont' kill it." c wouldn't let the baby die because then that would mean he failed at protecting the baby like a good daddy would and he wanted to make the evil lady leave his baby alone because it was making him so upset.

tagged: janet with rose
tword count: one thousand and five
tnotes: nothin<3
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

mary smiled up at him when he said she wished she could help to. it would be way better than being confined to this bed. �maybe someday someway i�ll be able to help, but until then you and rayne are doing a perfect job� she said sure that they were she didn�t know how rayne felt sense she was bearing cc�s child she knew it pry had to be hard on him, but mary wanted them to know that she thought the two were going to be great. he was so nice she really did trust him with ease. �you know i know this is really weird to say, but you�re making one of the dreams i really shouldn�t have come true in an odd way...even though i�m fourteen and your eighteen...i never thought i could be a mommy and well i know it was a bad way of conception, but i just want to say thank you for including me cause you really don�t have too� she said her pregnant emotions getting the best of her and tears falling down her cheeks. she always just wanted to say that, but before then she didn�t think she had the guts too and she hoped that cc didn�t hate her for her words.

the toys and swing sets brightened her eyes. the girls eyes just kind of glistened. she used to have dolly�s but her dad and rose had done bad things to them so she didn�t even think of her old toys. plus it could be a boy inside her. then he could have a little drum set or something because she knew cc played drums and she thought it�d be cute. �you know i never been on a swing before so i don�t know what kind are the better kinds� she admitted. �maybe, you can go swing for me some day and go really high if you don�t get scared and then you can come tell me how fun it was and then maybe i can help?� she asked with a smile. there was no point in crying with that one she just hadn�t been allowed to go swing before and maybe cc could go to it for her. it would be nice, but she hoped that didn�t confuse him.


when she said his grandparents wanted to meet her she gulped and glanced down at her stomach shutting her eyes. no one had ever wanted to meet her before. sure cc did, because he wanted to come help her plant and hang out because she was nice, but she had guarded that idea. it was just a warm feeling and she felt happy tears slide again down her face. �i�m sorry its just no one�s ever really wanted to meet me before...� she said looking at him. �i�m sure they�re great because you�re great and i�ll be happy to meet them� she said biting her lip. �excuse all the tears part are hormones the other are happy� she had no problem being honest. mary had no reason to be shy in front of cc anymore; well because he had seen everything, but also because there he was so sweet and there was no reason for it.

when rose woke up their was the scared little boy she raped and she couldn�t help but chuckle. �so we meet again...mmm last time you were less clothed and beneath me� she said and grinned. �you know who needs to have sex next is mary...you know the only reason i went after you was because she liked you right a little more then a friend she had a crush, but she wanted me to stay away...she wanted you to stay away..� she shook her head a little at the notion. �now look at you..you can�t stay away and she�s wanting you to swing for her and thanking you for making her a parent when...its just her body our body she�s fucking up� she said rolling her eyes. �you know i never intended for her to get pregnant, but this will be the perfect way to kill her, and the dumb child, and possibly you and rayne even if its just emotionally because you�re all foolish enough to think you all can take care of babies� she said just rambling off at the mouth with a smirk. �and your grandparents want to meet mary...how sweet do they know her know here?� she asked her eyes sharply turning to cc and his backing up. �i should tell you mary�s story or mine...you should know who the mother of your child is�

�once upon a time in a state farish away there was a little girl named rose mary berlin. the two proud parents only wanted one child, but somehow the brains of phillip berlin created two though mary was never meant to survive...just me rose its more natural that the real first name survive in my opinion...its what her parents named us after all and mary is just a foolish child that won�t let go...anyways her mother was a pretty woman though phillip had it right he would tie her to a bed have his way with her and then cut into her body letting her know that it was his possession and he could do as he please...well one year he taught rose how to do it too...he guided my little hand and taught me how to stab eventually...probably so he wouldn�t get in trouble for killing her...my little hand just stabbed away into her gleaming as the life left her body...then we put a rose on her and spread some pedals about...some say it was a gruesome way to go, but i think she was going to die anyways and there was no need for her phillip and i were efficient all are own, but then mary came into the mix..� she shook her head. �maybe this little baby will do the job for me...kill mary� she looked down at her stomach. �1..2 im coming for you...3..4 your mother is no more, 5..6 lets take her out of the mix 7..8 you�ll grow to hate 9...10 mary is to never see light again.�



rose only laughed when he yelled at her to shut up. why? it was funny making nice people angry and the only reason she now couldn�t get to him was because she was tied down, so it was amusing now that the little boy was brave. �she is my baby..i had sex with you not mary...think about it cc� she said and smirked. �your tears....and my screams and the sex WE had made this baby the only thing that mary is doing is keeping me from killing it...i don�t know why though...she already knew having a child would be something she shouldn�t do� she said and licked her lips. �the fetus will bury nicely i�m sure...it�ll be a small coffin you�ll need i hope rather then cribs�

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[christian drew carver]

c was so happy to see mary smile that he was really giddy and giggles escaped the boys lips. he kind of blushed a little when she said that him and rayne were doing a perfect job because sometimes hew wasn't so sure. neither of them were really ready for this but they did have a better chance then mary, she was so young and fragile and couldn't really get a job but the two boys could and they would to make this babies life a good one. "thank you mary," he said with a bright smile. "it wasn't your fault though mary. i know that, rayne said it was the mean lady rose and i'm glad your happy and having my baby. the baby couldn't have a better mommy. so you don't have to thank me cause they baby can't not have such a good mommy like you. it wouldn't be fair to the baby or you." he smiled because that was kind of his outlook on this. he didn't know what else to really say about it because he jsut wanted mary to be happy and the baby to be happy and himself happy. cc didn't have a hateful bone in his body so he wiped the tears off of mary's face and kissed her cheek because she was one of his best friends."don't cry mary," he said taking her hand and smiling bright at her.

that was kind of cc's plan to make mary brighten up because he wanted her happy and he needed help of course. though he did plan when the baby was old enough to choose his or her toys that they would be able to pick what he or she pleased but baby toys were a different story and he needed help with it because help was always good! plus she might want the baby to have some toys because she like them a lot and he didn't want her not to be included of course. then she said she never been on a swing and he was surprised but then he smiled when she asked him to go swing and stuff and he clapped his hands a bunch. "i can do that for you," he said kind of giddy. "the next time i come by i'll tell you all about it!" he was already excited for the next time he would come to see mary and bring his rayne with him too!. he giggled all giddy like and clapped again. "and one day you can come swing on a swing yourself too!"

the boys grandparents were some of the sweetest people and the one's who taught the carver boy not to judge anyone. so of course with some explanation they were more than happy to help take care of this baby. the fact that they wanted to meet mary was because cc told them all nice things about mary because there were no bad things about her to tell! she was the nicest person ever and he wanted them to meet cause he wanted his nana and granddad to meet all the people he knew and mary was a person he knew and liked! he kind of frowned when she cried but she said theyw ere happy and hormone tears. his brainwas wrapped up in a happy smile and he wiped the tears and kissed her cheek again. "oh well then people are silly because they should all want to meet you because your the best," he said with a bright smile. "they are the best grandparents ever. nana is really excited just like me and she said to tell you that rest is good and that she loves you and the baby and hope you two are well!" his nana was a sweetie like him and he was giddy!

c just kind of shook his head because he couldn't miss her! she was mean..and he didn't want her here. he wanted mary back and he can't believe he was dumb enough to sing. he wanted to hit himself over and over and apologize to mary because it was all his darn fault but he couldn't move. he wqas frozen in a fear and he just stood there, eyes wide, unable to say or do a think. but the worst was that she kept blaming him and he shook his head over and over again. "mary's my friend! and.." then she kind of threatened rayne in a way and that was just about the worst thing a person could do to him. threaten his rayne! the anger began to shoot through him. "NO! you won't kill the baby or mary because it'll hurt rayne and if you hurt rayne!!" he wanted to punch her and he was slowly forgetting that the baby and mary and he walked up to her. he wasn't scared anymore, he was angry and upset and hurt. "you won't hurt anyone because you wont' have the chance. you'll be gone because this is mary's body not yours." he nodded, they new everything that c knew about mary and he didn't hide things and he didn't lie that wasn't him!

but he didn't want to hear this story either! it wasn't her storyt o tell him it was up to mary for him to know and he wanted to put his hand over his ears and lalala her but he was stuck, just staring down at her as she spoke but he wasn't changing his views on mary. if anything it made his hatred and disgust of rose grow! she was mean and heartless and cold and she didn't deserve to be in the bodyof the nicest girl he's ever known. though it was the song to the baby that made c explode! he didn't want his child to grow up to hate, he didn't want her to hurt his baby and he was sad and upset and he couldn't control his hand as it smacked rose's face."shut up! shut up! leave the baby alone..leave mary alone just go away and leave us all alone." he felt the tears in his eyes as what he did settled in and he backed away and bit his lip. "just go!"

c was brave because he was upset and angry and he would have yelled at her either way! he just didn't like it and he wanted the anger to go away but the more rose spoke, the more fueled he became. he just shook his head because the baby wasn't rose's baby and he wouldn't let it be rose's baby. well even if it was roses' baby she wouldn't be near it because that would be mean to the baby. no it was mary's, cc's and rayne's baby and tat was final!! when she said that she didn't know why mary was keeping it, well c knew that answer. it was why he was taking the baby. because they all loved the baby no matter what happened to conceive it. "because she doesn't want to hurt the baby! because she's nice and she likes people and cares not like you." then she talked about burying the baby and he kept shaking is head over and over because the baby wasn't going to die! he wouldn't let the baby die because then he'd lose someone he loved and he already felt that once. when rayne left him and then when he thought that his rayne was dead. that was horrible enough!! now she wanted to kill a precious baby. HIS precious baby!? he was hurt so badly..so damn badly. "NO!! NO NO NO!" he put his hand over his ears and shook his head because he was done with this. he was done with the words that mary was speaking and he wanted her to just go away already. go far away.


tagged: janet with rose
tword count: one thousand and three hundred and fifteen
tnotes: nothin<3
tsong: saviour by black viel brides

[rose mary berlin]

mary was happy to be happy, because it wasn’t a lot of time she got. that sounded bad, because she wasn’t miserable she was doing way better now that she was fourteen, but she still couldn’t completely control the wrong half of her brain. the one that her father phillip fucked up so she couldn’t help but be sad sometimes. mary just knew when he said it wasn’t her fault something just kind of hit her and she didn’t want it. ”thanks” she said quickly tyring to jerk her hands up to plug her ears, but they were bogged down. ”my name is mary and you’re name is christian and i like you and rayne” she said over his words loudly so she wouldn’t have to hear the name and she even looked away as not to see his mouth moving. she was desperate but she was still here. then she caught his words about being a better mommy and a good mommy and looked back at him. ”sorry i do this weird thing sometimes where i just talk...talk over people” she said not being able to say why. ”please don’t think i am being rude” she said in hopes he wouldn’t find her to be rude. ”you’re going to be the bestest daddy ever cc you and rayne both” she said coming up with her reply to his compliments even though her eyes were mixed with happy tears and her pinks were flushed with a pink tone. he wiped away her tears and she just smiled back at him blushing a little more at him kissing her cheek she couldn’t help it she was a fourteen year old girl. ”they’re happy tears” she said nodding with assurance.

toys were an important part of one’s childhood, but mary would never be able to look at certain toys again the same way as she had, because they resembled evil, but then it wouldn’t be mary looking at the toys it would be rose. she hoped that rose could just die...its all she wanted in her lifetime was the woman to just die! he said he would swing for her and the girl couldn’t help but be chipper. ”you’re the best” she said with a wide smile. ”i bet you’re like really good at swinging too...my therapist used to tell me not to bet...but i can’t help it...its technically not a bet” yeah she brought up her therapist, because phillip was something for rose and her mother was something rose took away from her so the next closest person was the therapist. could you blame her other family? they didn’t want to be associated with a crazy! ”oh i don’t think i’ll be able to do that, but maybe” she said her voice full of hope!

she could old imagine the old sweet pairing would be what cc reflected. he had their beliefs and she couldn’t help but assume that he had their characteristics despite his adhd. again he was wiping the tears away from her face and he looked sad so she was glad she could explain. it was great being able to learn stuff about you’re baby and how stuff worked while you were getting credits done for high school. ”you’re too kind cc” she said at the comment of silly people and her being the best. she couldn’t even say how she got to be herself! her mind would do a three sixty and it really...the girl didn’t like to say this word, but it sucked! ”i’m glad i got to meet you though...cause you’re like my best friend” she said in case he wasn’t aware she was informing him. well, he was mainly her only friend and it was because she had a kid inside her...if it wasn’t for that they’d only would have stayed friends online. everything happened for a reason right? the kid was a blessing. ”well you tell you’re nana you’re words do her justice and that she has done well when it comes to you and i can’t wait to meet her and for her to meet the baby” mary had a hard time saying the word love when it came to people she didn’t really know. sure she loved cc and she told him and she was growing to love rayne and she trusted cc’s words with the love and sweetness from his grandma, but it was hard. ”maybe you can scan the picture somehow and how the baby to her...i’m sure maybe rayne knows how?”


”ah, thats mean christian of course you miss me!” she said with a smirk. yeah okay so no one missed her but phillip maybe it was obvious a lot of people really hated the girl, but it was mostly mary’s pain, because well rose didn’t give a fuck. she was the exact opposite then her worse half. ”ohhh how cute mary made a friend...” she said rolling her eyes at the frozen boy. ”mary is a little bitch” was all she had to say about that. ”she has nothing and no one, but this baby and you’re feeding her heart false hope” she said licking her lips. ”did you know she had a crush on you? i would have said crush, but i’ll cut the little girl a break for now...but she did and well i did her a favor, but you turned out gay anyhow, so its kind of amusing..” she said and smirked. ”she can never have you and rayne and you will always be the ‘real’ parents of this baby” she said and nodded to one of the drawers. ”did she tell you she’s thinking of going back tot he nut house in california, because with a baby around she fears i’ll be out more...and if she visits it’ll just be too painful” she just laughed at his anger. ”ooo the threat of hurting rayne pushes your buttons does it not?” she asked licking her lips. ”i’ll remember to keep it in view so mary can see you’re an angry person...” she said and snickered as if she could corrupt and tweak thoughts.


little did he or rose know mary was in there trying to fight the evil, but she was a feeble girl and she didn’t like to fight. she hated everything about it...except the battle within her. the story just amused rose and him covering his ears she made him laugh. then she saw the hand and mary came about a bit within the fight trying to come out to say something good about her mother and the baby and get her to shut up and that was when the hand extended and hit mary not rose, but cc didn’t know that. for a moment she stayed, but she the song came into her ears and pained her heart. how could rose say something like that and instantly it was back to rose. ”oh that hit...that hit hurt mary more then it hurt me...she was trying to come talk about her mommy, but i put that bitch back down where she belongs. she said informing him. though mary woul despise her even more for saying or even speaking these words! ”people have been trying to get me to go for years...they’ve shocked me...they’ve strapped me to tables...they kept me in isolation much worse then this...im here to stay a little boy in a big boys body isn’t going to get the final say.” she said glaring at him.

”i hope she kills the baby in her attempts to keep it alive so i won’t have to, but we shall see christian and its not hers its mine believe as you wish...i don’t want it...and it will die one way or another that thing isn’t coming out of this body alive....its ugly” she said in a rage not caring he was angry. ”caring gets you no where!” she yelled. ”it gets you no where...i cared once...then daddy taught me right he taught me that caring was foolish and only the weak care christian only the weak care!” she shouted at him. ”yes yes yes, so shut your damn moth you childish little bastard” she said and grinned. ”twinkle twinkle little star...how no one wonders who you are...up inside a world so cold..like a horrible mistake inside” she said singing words to the baby again. ”oh how funny mary’s trying to come visit again....if i had my hands i’d choke the life out of her...this is my body..MINE” she said evily.

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WORDS! three ninety-three
STATUS! complete
TAGS! ilikeyou christian drew carver<3
NOTES!
OUTFIT! wearing a hospital like gown and tights<_<
CREDITS! Template Byarro @ Caution!
LYRICS! Colorado Sunrise by 3OH!3
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